Hi ppl!!! >< Yr dear fren here is currently in SG now^^ Havin fun. We jz went 2 da Night Safari Yday nite. Was fun, got so damn close 2 da leapord n had fun chattin with otters^^ Anyway, I'll upload da fotos when I get back home^^
it's early in da mornin now I'm practically drownin with boredom cz nobody is home except me n my bro n my cousin. Both boys are asleep now cz all slept round 5.30am dis morn @@
I cant wait 2 go 2 da museums 2day^^ Plannin2 go 2 da art museum (dats gonna make Zi Hao jealous ><) n also da Asian Civilisation Museum.
Ok then. Better go^^ More updates bout da trip in a nex post.
Another Time with HIM
After nagging Him a lil, he finally managed 2 drag himself out of bed n come fetch me 2 town 2 buy my bus tickets 2 SG.
In half an hours time after callin him through da phone, I c him zoomin past traffic n stoppin abruptly rite in front of da bus stop I was at. Y does he always drive like that?
- His answer was cz he cant help it. He jz likes 2 speed.
He was cursin non stop through da sms as he took a big round through da stuck traffic 2 pick me up from Puduraya. Tryin 2 chill him was takin me a lot of effort.
Our nex Destination was Summit. Of all places I thought. 2 me Summit was da place where there was least 2 walk around, unless u wanna shop 4 clothes n clothes only. But no, he brought me 2 da arcade n he played somethn called DDR ( a dance pad with 4 arrows game). It wasn bad.
Oh yea, He couldn dance 2 real music n routines, but he definitely can follow arrows n beats^^ He was playin lvls that I cant even pass da 1st few steps.
At the same time, there was ths cute lil gal alwasy rite beside us. She sat beside me n watched Drew play DDR. Tellin me that the gogo (elder brother) is very gd in playin that game, I smiled at her n nodded.
When I came back from the toilet, I had 2 talk near his ear for da arcade was 2 loud. At the same time, lil gal here shouted, Jeje(elder sis)! U r very pretty.
I was like wat? SPEECHLESS!! Gosh! Tht was truly RANDOM>.<>.<>
I gave her my arcade token as a sort of thx2 her n we left 4 a movie->> The Golden Compass. As we walked 2 da show, I slipped myself under his arm so his arm was over my shoulder n I drapped mine on his. As we walked more, his arm slipped down 2 my waist. N he kept it there. ^^ I was hyper n was blushin. Luckily he din notice.
I hav 2 admit, the show was more of a confusion than interestin. I nearly fell asleep on Drew's shoulder halfway past the show. I don say its borin but there was definitely 2 much convo in a show thats gonna be watched by an audience of young n old.
PS : WTF is wrong with 2day?! It's rainin all day!!!
In half an hours time after callin him through da phone, I c him zoomin past traffic n stoppin abruptly rite in front of da bus stop I was at. Y does he always drive like that?
- His answer was cz he cant help it. He jz likes 2 speed.
He was cursin non stop through da sms as he took a big round through da stuck traffic 2 pick me up from Puduraya. Tryin 2 chill him was takin me a lot of effort.
Our nex Destination was Summit. Of all places I thought. 2 me Summit was da place where there was least 2 walk around, unless u wanna shop 4 clothes n clothes only. But no, he brought me 2 da arcade n he played somethn called DDR ( a dance pad with 4 arrows game). It wasn bad.
Oh yea, He couldn dance 2 real music n routines, but he definitely can follow arrows n beats^^ He was playin lvls that I cant even pass da 1st few steps.
At the same time, there was ths cute lil gal alwasy rite beside us. She sat beside me n watched Drew play DDR. Tellin me that the gogo (elder brother) is very gd in playin that game, I smiled at her n nodded.
When I came back from the toilet, I had 2 talk near his ear for da arcade was 2 loud. At the same time, lil gal here shouted, Jeje(elder sis)! U r very pretty.
I was like wat? SPEECHLESS!! Gosh! Tht was truly RANDOM>.<>.<>
I gave her my arcade token as a sort of thx2 her n we left 4 a movie->> The Golden Compass. As we walked 2 da show, I slipped myself under his arm so his arm was over my shoulder n I drapped mine on his. As we walked more, his arm slipped down 2 my waist. N he kept it there. ^^ I was hyper n was blushin. Luckily he din notice.
I hav 2 admit, the show was more of a confusion than interestin. I nearly fell asleep on Drew's shoulder halfway past the show. I don say its borin but there was definitely 2 much convo in a show thats gonna be watched by an audience of young n old.
PS : WTF is wrong with 2day?! It's rainin all day!!!
Altho It's My Fault but STUPID BITCH
After playin a whole nite (mornin 1-5am) of mahjong at Andrew's. Tryin 2 wake up at 11am for wark was beyond my limits. more than 10 missed calls were listed sayin Andrew called n He is STILL callin. So finally I picked up n walked out my main door 2 find him sittin at da corridor.
Its time 2 get 2 work. He's followin along. he biked a big bike, I drove my mini car^^ He drove rite beside my window. haha... Imagine stuck in a jam- Da oni bike stoppin once every few secs beside a red Savvy.
I had 2 admit, with his stare when I was teachin, I din feel da least bit of sleepyness.
He slept a lil while I was teachin. When I finished, I peeped closely at his face. Cute, N he said he din snore... HE DID! (a lil)
Later he left early.
On da way back, I ended up in a lil car crash. I made a sudden turn n hit a Hilux (if not mistaken). Luckily it was door 2 door hit, So no harm was done. Thank God. If not I will hav 2 settle this stuff adi.
So no harm was done n after havin a lil "chat" with da lady driver's Husband (who was on a pityful bike), I left. The bitch din say anythn ( sorry la 4 being rude but I'm really really pissed at you, women, 4 drivin so damn fast on a slow lane). Da husband was da 1 givin HELL LOT OF BULL. like "U should turn like that. U noe wat can u cause" I noe la damnit, which bastard doesn noe, they jz purposely drive this way. Wat makes u think accidents happen. U lucky I din kill yr wife. SO jz be grateful. (Geez I sound so mean)
Its time 2 get 2 work. He's followin along. he biked a big bike, I drove my mini car^^ He drove rite beside my window. haha... Imagine stuck in a jam- Da oni bike stoppin once every few secs beside a red Savvy.
I had 2 admit, with his stare when I was teachin, I din feel da least bit of sleepyness.
He slept a lil while I was teachin. When I finished, I peeped closely at his face. Cute, N he said he din snore... HE DID! (a lil)
Later he left early.
On da way back, I ended up in a lil car crash. I made a sudden turn n hit a Hilux (if not mistaken). Luckily it was door 2 door hit, So no harm was done. Thank God. If not I will hav 2 settle this stuff adi.
So no harm was done n after havin a lil "chat" with da lady driver's Husband (who was on a pityful bike), I left. The bitch din say anythn ( sorry la 4 being rude but I'm really really pissed at you, women, 4 drivin so damn fast on a slow lane). Da husband was da 1 givin HELL LOT OF BULL. like "U should turn like that. U noe wat can u cause" I noe la damnit, which bastard doesn noe, they jz purposely drive this way. Wat makes u think accidents happen. U lucky I din kill yr wife. SO jz be grateful. (Geez I sound so mean)
Call me STUPID @@
Ok.. After readin this Blog, U will definitely think I'm nuts.
Ok, Bout andrew... After thinkin much, I dono wat happened but I actually challenged Him. 2 a Match!!! O.o! Before I knew wat I was really doin, I already had his reply in my hp. Well, Guess I was followin my feelings 2 much. I jz felt like I had nth 2 fear adi. I nvr did fought before. Nvr in my 18 years of life.
This was my 1st fight, N I was gonna fight with a blackbelt!!!
Don go blamin on Him that he;s not gentleman or wat cz he did say he din 1 this fight but I insisted. I had it in exchange of my friendship with Him. If he fights me fair n square, fighter to fighter, I would be his fren. If he doesn, We're callin it quits.
Ok, Now u can really call me NUTS!!!
Ok, Bout andrew... After thinkin much, I dono wat happened but I actually challenged Him. 2 a Match!!! O.o! Before I knew wat I was really doin, I already had his reply in my hp. Well, Guess I was followin my feelings 2 much. I jz felt like I had nth 2 fear adi. I nvr did fought before. Nvr in my 18 years of life.
This was my 1st fight, N I was gonna fight with a blackbelt!!!
Don go blamin on Him that he;s not gentleman or wat cz he did say he din 1 this fight but I insisted. I had it in exchange of my friendship with Him. If he fights me fair n square, fighter to fighter, I would be his fren. If he doesn, We're callin it quits.
Ok, Now u can really call me NUTS!!!
Wat I Call Thoughts Of Boringness
Mom jz came back from da airport. Dad went 4 badminton, leavin his cell at home. Bro is angry cz I am on9 n makin his computer lag. Life seriously IS boring sometimes.
So I was browsing through my blog. Eventually comin 2 da post where I wrote bout my new ballet shoes. I cant help but stare at those shoe pictures. So shiny~
The thought of my very own ballet shoes came in. Then I thought, y din they provide pure white one's in ballet studios >.< i loved da whites. They seem very pure n jz gives out that pure ballet graceful feeling.
I jz wished I had those >.< AH~ Dancin ballet would mean so much more if I actually danced with pure white dance shoes^^
So I was browsing through my blog. Eventually comin 2 da post where I wrote bout my new ballet shoes. I cant help but stare at those shoe pictures. So shiny~
The thought of my very own ballet shoes came in. Then I thought, y din they provide pure white one's in ballet studios >.< i loved da whites. They seem very pure n jz gives out that pure ballet graceful feeling.
I jz wished I had those >.< AH~ Dancin ballet would mean so much more if I actually danced with pure white dance shoes^^
A Dream Of A Confused Mind
Yawn!... It's already afternoon n I'm still cuddled up in bed. Time passed by 4 dono how long adi since I was awake. I remembered, I was kinda cryin 2 sleep last nite.
It was Yesterday all da while dat I was thinkin about. He come over, Andrew that is. We chatted, hugged n a lil kissin was added in. It was fun n we were happy^^ I hav 2 say that I kinda had feelings 4 Him n was certain that he had 2...
No sooner after he went back home n came on9 that our friendship had turned a nightmare. Situations between us became gloomy. No doubt that I still had feelins 4 my ex, but I also had feelings 4 Drew. He admitted he likes me, but he had 2 call it quits. Reason? He can hav a non virgin as a gd fren, but not a gf... Ok, I am not a virgin anymore. But wat's wrong with that? At least I oni did it with somebody that I thought I was willing 2 hav a family with. So wats da crime in that? I loved Him. And cz of that I couldn even hav another relationship?
He asked 4 us 2 remain frenz, but I said i cant. I prefer 2 call it Full Time quits if u really wana do this.. N we did tat. N I actually ended in tears... Wonder y...
Well woke up now n da 1st thing I thougth was... AH! new day, new me. Guess I wasn that sad after Him, but more on my ex. Guess I cried last nite cz I was 2 tired... So I told myself, It was all a dream^^ A very long long sweet dream^^ I yeah, I actually did feel a lot better after tellin myself that.
It was Yesterday all da while dat I was thinkin about. He come over, Andrew that is. We chatted, hugged n a lil kissin was added in. It was fun n we were happy^^ I hav 2 say that I kinda had feelings 4 Him n was certain that he had 2...
No sooner after he went back home n came on9 that our friendship had turned a nightmare. Situations between us became gloomy. No doubt that I still had feelins 4 my ex, but I also had feelings 4 Drew. He admitted he likes me, but he had 2 call it quits. Reason? He can hav a non virgin as a gd fren, but not a gf... Ok, I am not a virgin anymore. But wat's wrong with that? At least I oni did it with somebody that I thought I was willing 2 hav a family with. So wats da crime in that? I loved Him. And cz of that I couldn even hav another relationship?
He asked 4 us 2 remain frenz, but I said i cant. I prefer 2 call it Full Time quits if u really wana do this.. N we did tat. N I actually ended in tears... Wonder y...
Well woke up now n da 1st thing I thougth was... AH! new day, new me. Guess I wasn that sad after Him, but more on my ex. Guess I cried last nite cz I was 2 tired... So I told myself, It was all a dream^^ A very long long sweet dream^^ I yeah, I actually did feel a lot better after tellin myself that.
A Date 2 Remember.
Jz came back from dating with Andrew (not really dating but it was a date since it was 2 of us new frenz) . Lol... A lil tiring but it was fun. Here was da plan... N I shall oni say da so called important points la.
11.30am>>Me n Andrew met up at Pyramid n had lunch at Pizza Hut.
12.45pm>> Went skating. Got a blister on my foot.. Ouch! Tried skatin new tricks but still think I don hav da guts 2 do so. Goin full throttle 2 do da hard 1's I mean.
3.00pm >> Went 2 buy movie tix. Plan 2 watch Mr. Macnorium's Wonder Emporium.
3.15pm >> Plan 2 take pool but was full so we switched 2 bowling. N YEA! I won him by 5 marks.. Hahaha!! Anyway, had a lot of lucky strikes 2day^^ Guess it's my lucky day^^ Finished 1 game, went n buy Takoyaki!!! Yea yea!!!
4.30pm >> Movie starts. We shared 1 coke... Both of us were cold towards da end of da movie so we held each others hands.
6.00pm >> Zi Hao sms's me that rehearsal at 7pm was change 2 8pm that day. Still holdin hands n went all da way 2 Popular in Pyramid. Nth in particular there.. Jz that him as a scientific person n me as an art person. We brought each other in2 each others world of knowledge (which was pullin each other 2 da departments we always go 2 in Popular) After leavin Popular, our hands were separated.
7.00pm >> Went 4 dinner at Nando's.
7.45pm >> He walked me 2 my car n I left.
8.30pm >> Zi Hao n da other actors came 2 my house 4 rehearsal 4 da upcomin show. It was funny when I need 2 demo, I nvr imagined I'd do that. Mengq yek was suppose 2 cry but he ended up laughin most of da time.. I felt bad at tellin sternly bout da drama 2 da other senior actors. Cz no matter wat I was a newcomer in this drama group but yet I was that scenes co-director...
10.15pm>> Andrew sms'ed me, askin if I wanted 2 go out 4 biking. So I did^^ At the same time, Biondi (younger pet bro) sms'ed me also, like dat
Biondi : Hey can sms? Free now?
Sim : No, havin rehearsal, than goin out later.
Biondi : Oh then later I sms u n we chat la.
Sim : Cant. I want 2 save credit so I wont really chat unless its somethn important. So sorry.
Biondi : Oh then nvr mind la. I call u la like dat
Sim : I not really free la nowadays. Workin somemore. where got time oh.
Biondi : Oh then whenever free we chat lo^^
Sim : If la. But now these few months wont be free la cz of work n rehearsal 4 show.
Biondi : Nvr mind. I'll wait 4 u 1 no matter how late it is.
Sim : ok rehearsal now. bye.
10.30pm>> Andrew n I went 2 Small Genting in Cheras on his bike. He rode like damn fast n I actually AM a lil scared of bikes >< style="font-size:85%;">Drew : So u free 2moro?
Sim : Got rehearsal 4 drama at 12pm till 3pm then another session from 7pm till 10pm
Drew : So I bring u 2 da ice-cream shop 2moro then.. round 3?
Sim : 3?
Drew : I pick u up at 3 then we go Ice-cream shop la.
Sim : ok.
12.30am>> Biking back 2 Sri Petaling at a speed of 150km/j, Andrew was crazily speedin!!! Went 2 Sri Petalin mamak 2 eat n he made me laugh like crazy at some (most) of his lame jokes.
1.20am >> He sent 2 da guard house of my house. We continued chattin from there. I had 2 admit I was high , cz I was gigglin non stop hahahhaha.. then he held my hand yet again. I jz went along with it n we continued chattin. Nth happened after that.
1.40am >> We parted. He left n I walked back up2 my house. When I reached home. He smsed me n said he was already safe home. I'm like wat da hell!!! He lives in Subang, I live in Bkt Jalil. I took like 5 minutes 2 walk from da guard house 2 my house n once I shut my front door his sms came... o.o!...
11.30am>>Me n Andrew met up at Pyramid n had lunch at Pizza Hut.
12.45pm>> Went skating. Got a blister on my foot.. Ouch! Tried skatin new tricks but still think I don hav da guts 2 do so. Goin full throttle 2 do da hard 1's I mean.
3.00pm >> Went 2 buy movie tix. Plan 2 watch Mr. Macnorium's Wonder Emporium.
3.15pm >> Plan 2 take pool but was full so we switched 2 bowling. N YEA! I won him by 5 marks.. Hahaha!! Anyway, had a lot of lucky strikes 2day^^ Guess it's my lucky day^^ Finished 1 game, went n buy Takoyaki!!! Yea yea!!!
4.30pm >> Movie starts. We shared 1 coke... Both of us were cold towards da end of da movie so we held each others hands.
6.00pm >> Zi Hao sms's me that rehearsal at 7pm was change 2 8pm that day. Still holdin hands n went all da way 2 Popular in Pyramid. Nth in particular there.. Jz that him as a scientific person n me as an art person. We brought each other in2 each others world of knowledge (which was pullin each other 2 da departments we always go 2 in Popular) After leavin Popular, our hands were separated.
7.00pm >> Went 4 dinner at Nando's.
7.45pm >> He walked me 2 my car n I left.
8.30pm >> Zi Hao n da other actors came 2 my house 4 rehearsal 4 da upcomin show. It was funny when I need 2 demo, I nvr imagined I'd do that. Mengq yek was suppose 2 cry but he ended up laughin most of da time.. I felt bad at tellin sternly bout da drama 2 da other senior actors. Cz no matter wat I was a newcomer in this drama group but yet I was that scenes co-director...
10.15pm>> Andrew sms'ed me, askin if I wanted 2 go out 4 biking. So I did^^ At the same time, Biondi (younger pet bro) sms'ed me also, like dat
Biondi : Hey can sms? Free now?
Sim : No, havin rehearsal, than goin out later.
Biondi : Oh then later I sms u n we chat la.
Sim : Cant. I want 2 save credit so I wont really chat unless its somethn important. So sorry.
Biondi : Oh then nvr mind la. I call u la like dat
Sim : I not really free la nowadays. Workin somemore. where got time oh.
Biondi : Oh then whenever free we chat lo^^
Sim : If la. But now these few months wont be free la cz of work n rehearsal 4 show.
Biondi : Nvr mind. I'll wait 4 u 1 no matter how late it is.
Sim : ok rehearsal now. bye.
10.30pm>> Andrew n I went 2 Small Genting in Cheras on his bike. He rode like damn fast n I actually AM a lil scared of bikes >< style="font-size:85%;">Drew : So u free 2moro?
Sim : Got rehearsal 4 drama at 12pm till 3pm then another session from 7pm till 10pm
Drew : So I bring u 2 da ice-cream shop 2moro then.. round 3?
Sim : 3?
Drew : I pick u up at 3 then we go Ice-cream shop la.
Sim : ok.
12.30am>> Biking back 2 Sri Petaling at a speed of 150km/j, Andrew was crazily speedin!!! Went 2 Sri Petalin mamak 2 eat n he made me laugh like crazy at some (most) of his lame jokes.
1.20am >> He sent 2 da guard house of my house. We continued chattin from there. I had 2 admit I was high , cz I was gigglin non stop hahahhaha.. then he held my hand yet again. I jz went along with it n we continued chattin. Nth happened after that.
1.40am >> We parted. He left n I walked back up2 my house. When I reached home. He smsed me n said he was already safe home. I'm like wat da hell!!! He lives in Subang, I live in Bkt Jalil. I took like 5 minutes 2 walk from da guard house 2 my house n once I shut my front door his sms came... o.o!...
Desperation...
Again I went out. Planned 2 go gentin in da nite but it was cancelled last minute cz most of us hate work da nex day. So i went with Alton, to his b'day at Mardigras. WOW!!! Da amount of Jack Daniels on da table was shockin...
When I went there, there was this live band performance. Seriously da gals, the way they shake their ass was nice, but when they tried da pussycat dolls way of squattin down then pinchin out yr ass n slowly stand up... HAHAH!!! It looked funny...
A small lil stage was rite in front of da DJ. There's also a bar. Lookin further I saw another bigger stage, with water fountains n water rainin down in a circle. It was for shows of da hired sexy dancers. They get wet when they dance 4 da audience.
Standin at the bar, I felt a pair of eyes lookin at me.I turned n saw this totally hottie standin beside the bar on da other side. Smart with a tie. Cute chinese N looks young enough 2 reach early 20's^^ 2 make sure if he was really lookin at me, I walk around him n he actually turned his head towards wherever I was.
Before I new it, I was pulled up on stage by a few guys. Danced solo n ended up havin guys droolin over me^^ Haha.. Desperate shouts like " I want u" or " I am yrs" Can be heard =.=" Next thing I turned n da hottie I saw was dancin there, facin me. N he signalled 2 dance with me. So i left da stage n danced with him^^ Was like a dream... for some reason he kept strokin my hair when I was dancin.. Well, feels pampered anyway. Danced alone on stage again. Then this twin bros asked me 2 dance with em. No Prob^^ They werent as hot as the hottie I liked, but I had a tendency 4 guys that hav long hair n a well-built body. Moreover they were TWINS!!! So i did dance with em.
Dancin on stage was easy. Next I was invited by a gal 2 dance with her on da giant speakers. Gettin tired I sat on those speakers. A teenage lookin guy walked pass, stopped in front of me n ask me 2 dance with him. Fine, no harm done. So i danced. The minute we started was the minute he laid his hands on my ass. I pulled his hands onto my back n said no. He tried 2 say somethn n I couldn hear, so he pulled me out of da club. I thought he was gonna stop but he kept on goin. So i yanked out his hand n ask wat was it he wanna say. N all da "yr dance is sexy", "Yr very hot" All dat crap comes out, yet again. I told him I want 2 go back n he followed, pulled me 2 a corner in a bar n tried 2 dance with me. I rejected him by sayin my bf sittin on da other side of da club would be angry. He replied by sayin then we shal dance at this side of da club, away form yr bf. I said I don wanna dance, legs 2 tired, he sat me down. said that I shouldn be so scared cz thats how clubs are. YEA RYTE!!! ASS HOLE , CLUBS ARE 4 RELEASIN STRESS 2 ME!!! So i push him away. Ended up he hugged me even tighter!!! So I jz screamed as loud as i can, n he let me go^^ I ran 2 my frenz n sat there 4 awhile. later I was dancin on stage again^^
Later, I walked with 1 of da twin bros 2 pay da parkin ticket n we bumped in2 dis guy that was all da time ryte in front of me when I danced on stage. Whenever he saw me, he shouted"SIMONE! Yr a damn sexy dancer!!!"... I'm like 'sweat!!!' His shouts could be heard all over 1U!!! It's plain obvious that he was drunk. Haiz.. 2 bad he wont be seeing me no more^^
When I went there, there was this live band performance. Seriously da gals, the way they shake their ass was nice, but when they tried da pussycat dolls way of squattin down then pinchin out yr ass n slowly stand up... HAHAH!!! It looked funny...
A small lil stage was rite in front of da DJ. There's also a bar. Lookin further I saw another bigger stage, with water fountains n water rainin down in a circle. It was for shows of da hired sexy dancers. They get wet when they dance 4 da audience.
Standin at the bar, I felt a pair of eyes lookin at me.I turned n saw this totally hottie standin beside the bar on da other side. Smart with a tie. Cute chinese N looks young enough 2 reach early 20's^^ 2 make sure if he was really lookin at me, I walk around him n he actually turned his head towards wherever I was.
Before I new it, I was pulled up on stage by a few guys. Danced solo n ended up havin guys droolin over me^^ Haha.. Desperate shouts like " I want u" or " I am yrs" Can be heard =.=" Next thing I turned n da hottie I saw was dancin there, facin me. N he signalled 2 dance with me. So i left da stage n danced with him^^ Was like a dream... for some reason he kept strokin my hair when I was dancin.. Well, feels pampered anyway. Danced alone on stage again. Then this twin bros asked me 2 dance with em. No Prob^^ They werent as hot as the hottie I liked, but I had a tendency 4 guys that hav long hair n a well-built body. Moreover they were TWINS!!! So i did dance with em.
Dancin on stage was easy. Next I was invited by a gal 2 dance with her on da giant speakers. Gettin tired I sat on those speakers. A teenage lookin guy walked pass, stopped in front of me n ask me 2 dance with him. Fine, no harm done. So i danced. The minute we started was the minute he laid his hands on my ass. I pulled his hands onto my back n said no. He tried 2 say somethn n I couldn hear, so he pulled me out of da club. I thought he was gonna stop but he kept on goin. So i yanked out his hand n ask wat was it he wanna say. N all da "yr dance is sexy", "Yr very hot" All dat crap comes out, yet again. I told him I want 2 go back n he followed, pulled me 2 a corner in a bar n tried 2 dance with me. I rejected him by sayin my bf sittin on da other side of da club would be angry. He replied by sayin then we shal dance at this side of da club, away form yr bf. I said I don wanna dance, legs 2 tired, he sat me down. said that I shouldn be so scared cz thats how clubs are. YEA RYTE!!! ASS HOLE , CLUBS ARE 4 RELEASIN STRESS 2 ME!!! So i push him away. Ended up he hugged me even tighter!!! So I jz screamed as loud as i can, n he let me go^^ I ran 2 my frenz n sat there 4 awhile. later I was dancin on stage again^^
Later, I walked with 1 of da twin bros 2 pay da parkin ticket n we bumped in2 dis guy that was all da time ryte in front of me when I danced on stage. Whenever he saw me, he shouted"SIMONE! Yr a damn sexy dancer!!!"... I'm like 'sweat!!!' His shouts could be heard all over 1U!!! It's plain obvious that he was drunk. Haiz.. 2 bad he wont be seeing me no more^^
Freakish Guy..
Oh dear, I've jz went through my inbox in hi5 n found some random guy's message. He wrote there that he is lookin 4 sex n is willin 2 pay rm700 4 it... Oh dear oh dear oh dear!!! Aside from that, he also said if no also don b angry cz of being straightforward...
Seriously 4 awhile there I was speechless..... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
Out of curiousity I went 2 view his profile. I mean, he wasn bad lookin at all, da typical asian cutie... But then da word "lookin for sex" seriously has turned me off... If he was askin 2 be frenz I would reconsider but this.. Forget it...
So..
In his profile, I found nth surprisin 4 a jerk like him. His frenz list were all cute girls. N his comments were more like "Finally my webcam is fixed, I want u 2 come c me.." n fotos n videos of porn from other websites...
Seriously EEWW!!! I can imagine him forwardin da message he sent 2 me 2 like every gal he sees... SICKO... I'd wish u f**k all those galfrenz of his get heart attack n DIE...
Sex, haha! Obviously I can't deny that I'm really addicted 2 it!
>> addicted 2 talk n chat about it with my gang^^ Not look n not do... Hahah! HAHAH!!!
Seriously 4 awhile there I was speechless..... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
Out of curiousity I went 2 view his profile. I mean, he wasn bad lookin at all, da typical asian cutie... But then da word "lookin for sex" seriously has turned me off... If he was askin 2 be frenz I would reconsider but this.. Forget it...
So..
In his profile, I found nth surprisin 4 a jerk like him. His frenz list were all cute girls. N his comments were more like "Finally my webcam is fixed, I want u 2 come c me.." n fotos n videos of porn from other websites...
Seriously EEWW!!! I can imagine him forwardin da message he sent 2 me 2 like every gal he sees... SICKO... I'd wish u f**k all those galfrenz of his get heart attack n DIE...
Sex, haha! Obviously I can't deny that I'm really addicted 2 it!
>> addicted 2 talk n chat about it with my gang^^ Not look n not do... Hahah! HAHAH!!!
The Key of Love and The Lock of Life
It is oni recently that i had a few guys ask me out on dates, I'd say Yes 2 well...most of them. But yet, I feel like I wasn quite lookin 4ward 2 any of em. I mean, the oni thing I'm lookin 4ward 2 is at least they wont make me think much bout him.
Anyway, term break jz started n 2day was da 1st day of da holiday. Da whole day I felt totally restless... jz scribblin on paper all day was really borin. Thx 2 a guy Andrew (not andrew yan) that Zach had intro-d, he sms'ed with me da whole day. He's ok, but seriously my credit is goin down 2 fast. ><
Altho so, I still can't forget him. Guess dis is wat is called love. Guess I'm seriously gotten it deep this time... Come to think of it, The sentence sayin
"U held da key, locked my heart for eternity. But when U left, u forgot to unlock it, threw away the key n left me halfway hanging."
Anyway, term break jz started n 2day was da 1st day of da holiday. Da whole day I felt totally restless... jz scribblin on paper all day was really borin. Thx 2 a guy Andrew (not andrew yan) that Zach had intro-d, he sms'ed with me da whole day. He's ok, but seriously my credit is goin down 2 fast. ><
Altho so, I still can't forget him. Guess dis is wat is called love. Guess I'm seriously gotten it deep this time... Come to think of it, The sentence sayin
"U held da key, locked my heart for eternity. But when U left, u forgot to unlock it, threw away the key n left me halfway hanging."
Hard n Shiny
Finally after a few months in grade 5 ballet I finally am goin up level with my whole class. I've been dying 2 try out point ballet shoes since I got attached 2 ballet but I nvr got da chance last time.
Class ended early n most of da students left, leavin me alone with my Beautiful sweet ballet teacher Jasmine^^ I ended up teachin her latin n we had a fun time till half way da show fittin fella came in. He brought 1 whole box full of ballet shoes with him. they were all new^^ So they're SHINY O.O!
Turns out that he was suppose 2 let all of us try da shoes but sadly he came late n da whole class went back except me. So I was da oni 1 tryin on the shoes^^ The tip of da she was really hard, till it hurts when I wear it even if it fits.
After fittin I got my new pair of DEMIpoint shoes, with the tip of da toe hard n the sole soft. my Full point shoes are on da way tho since they din hav da exact size then... Oh, Full point shoes hav hard soles n hard tip toes 2.
Dis is not mine but my new ballet shoes looks exactly like this 1. I lazy wanna take da foto. So here it is.
Goin Crazy...
OK... U noe when ppl r alone they tend 2 do stupid things? Well, I m now.
Drowned by BOREDOM, I on my music loud in da computer. Then I went of 2 do my stuff. Everywhere I went I was shakin my ass n dancin 2 da beat. Ok thats not stupid enough...
B4 I knew it, I was even shakin my head n swingin it left n right, back n forth even when I'm in da toilet doin da small stuff... SWT.. God.. It was like a few secs later till I thought back n got embarassed at myself. ///
C!!! Even after typin halfway in this blog I even can hold my hands up 2 dance a few steps b4 I can continue typin.. haiz...
God, it sure is bored 2 hav even 1 dance class canceled 4 da day. hard 2 believe its gonna be every monday cancelled. N now even college!!!
Drowned by BOREDOM, I on my music loud in da computer. Then I went of 2 do my stuff. Everywhere I went I was shakin my ass n dancin 2 da beat. Ok thats not stupid enough...
B4 I knew it, I was even shakin my head n swingin it left n right, back n forth even when I'm in da toilet doin da small stuff... SWT.. God.. It was like a few secs later till I thought back n got embarassed at myself. ///
C!!! Even after typin halfway in this blog I even can hold my hands up 2 dance a few steps b4 I can continue typin.. haiz...
God, it sure is bored 2 hav even 1 dance class canceled 4 da day. hard 2 believe its gonna be every monday cancelled. N now even college!!!
Sucks...
It's 7pm in da evenin n every1 in da house has gone out except me. It was ok at 1st by wastin my time on my comics instead of my assignments... But after I got fed up with readin. I was relunctant 2 dance but I had no partner, so screw it...
After wanderin bout in da house, thoughts n memories of da past started flowin in my head. SHIT!!! I don want 2 think bout it!!! But they kept comin... Die la... Those thoughts made me sick. They made me feel even bored than b4.
B4 I new it, I noticed I wanted a hug.. Well it was obviously inpossible when there's nobody at home. So i held back... I wanted a hug 4 being 2 lonely... haiz...
Forget IT!!! Everybody seems 2 be trippin on my tail since a few days back till now. I'm in a foul enough mood 2 really face any1 really... Gals n guys alike.
After wanderin bout in da house, thoughts n memories of da past started flowin in my head. SHIT!!! I don want 2 think bout it!!! But they kept comin... Die la... Those thoughts made me sick. They made me feel even bored than b4.
B4 I new it, I noticed I wanted a hug.. Well it was obviously inpossible when there's nobody at home. So i held back... I wanted a hug 4 being 2 lonely... haiz...
Forget IT!!! Everybody seems 2 be trippin on my tail since a few days back till now. I'm in a foul enough mood 2 really face any1 really... Gals n guys alike.
NEW NEW NEW!!!
Yea! I came back from Piano class 2day n found a piece of well done wood on da floor. Another smaller 1 lied nex 2 it. Dad said it was my new table n shelf^^ YEA!!! Finally i can hav da BIG table I wanted.
Took everythin 2 da room n fixed it. It was damn Heavy... >< But I managed with a lil help from my mom n bro^^ Nex I arranged all my things from my old table 2 my new1 ^^ It was nice...
I liked it so much heheh...
PS : N my bed now is not as shakey as last time cz my table is heavy n it hangs on2 my bed frame. Now I can really get a peaceful sleep. hehe
Took everythin 2 da room n fixed it. It was damn Heavy... >< But I managed with a lil help from my mom n bro^^ Nex I arranged all my things from my old table 2 my new1 ^^ It was nice...
I liked it so much heheh...
PS : N my bed now is not as shakey as last time cz my table is heavy n it hangs on2 my bed frame. Now I can really get a peaceful sleep. hehe
PP > Perfect Performance
It was after college had I drove out of pyramid n 2 da back lane 2 where Sunway College was. I twas da BIG day, well should be 2 da fact tht Roger (my best buddy) had 2 beg me 2 come watch his 1st play eva.
Surprisingly when I got there, I saw Marion n Mark Teh!!! I said HI... Marion remembered(I think) but Mark was blur. I can really c tht Sunway had a lot of irresistable hunks studyin here, cz even Kuhen (my other best bud) admits those guys were hot 2, by seeing how buff n handsome those faces were. But 1 thing, these guys surely aint Malaysian, n I bet they're not even Asian either. So, the thought of tryin 2 get 2 noe 1 jz washed away in my head. I didn 1 a faraway relationship.. BLEK!!!
When da show started, all da audience were in da Rooftop Theatre, includin marion n mark, Rogers whole family, n me n Kuhen^^ The whole play was based on 15 grandparents stories, all based on true stories told by granparents of each of the 15 members of Rogers class.
The way Roger acted, I'd had 2 say, Impressinly fantastic. Altho I don feel like I'm seeing a new side of him since he always played, fooled n tried 2 entertain me n Kuhen with stories n acts all da time in those school days, I was very impressed with the whole act n him 2^^. I did also spot a few guys in his class that're hot 2 but 2 no interest. Most scenes were sad n some scenes were cute (yea.. really cute). Like da 1 where Roger acted like a lil kid being beaten by his granny 4 openin an umbrella in da house. He even acted as the granny beatin him^^
Oh yes, Roger had a new hair cut... I think it looks ok on him, since in my mind, I don really fancy punk hairstyle. he got a tomahawk... yea, jz like da Gaspy hairstylin gel TV advertisement. but his is black.. Hhee
I loved da play, scenes that are sad touched my heart. Scenes that were funny made me laugh like shit... I really loved it^^ They were gd, really gd. I'm really glad Roger is gettin nearer 2 his goal of becomin a director^^ gd 4 u Roger Liew... I will nvr 4get this play, n I'll always go 4 yr futures plays that's gonna come.
Surprisingly when I got there, I saw Marion n Mark Teh!!! I said HI... Marion remembered(I think) but Mark was blur. I can really c tht Sunway had a lot of irresistable hunks studyin here, cz even Kuhen (my other best bud) admits those guys were hot 2, by seeing how buff n handsome those faces were. But 1 thing, these guys surely aint Malaysian, n I bet they're not even Asian either. So, the thought of tryin 2 get 2 noe 1 jz washed away in my head. I didn 1 a faraway relationship.. BLEK!!!
When da show started, all da audience were in da Rooftop Theatre, includin marion n mark, Rogers whole family, n me n Kuhen^^ The whole play was based on 15 grandparents stories, all based on true stories told by granparents of each of the 15 members of Rogers class.
The way Roger acted, I'd had 2 say, Impressinly fantastic. Altho I don feel like I'm seeing a new side of him since he always played, fooled n tried 2 entertain me n Kuhen with stories n acts all da time in those school days, I was very impressed with the whole act n him 2^^. I did also spot a few guys in his class that're hot 2 but 2 no interest. Most scenes were sad n some scenes were cute (yea.. really cute). Like da 1 where Roger acted like a lil kid being beaten by his granny 4 openin an umbrella in da house. He even acted as the granny beatin him^^
Oh yes, Roger had a new hair cut... I think it looks ok on him, since in my mind, I don really fancy punk hairstyle. he got a tomahawk... yea, jz like da Gaspy hairstylin gel TV advertisement. but his is black.. Hhee
I loved da play, scenes that are sad touched my heart. Scenes that were funny made me laugh like shit... I really loved it^^ They were gd, really gd. I'm really glad Roger is gettin nearer 2 his goal of becomin a director^^ gd 4 u Roger Liew... I will nvr 4get this play, n I'll always go 4 yr futures plays that's gonna come.
She's so Lonely~ So Lonely
It's thurs n it's Deepavali, after gettin a call from Mendy that her parents left 4 New Zealand 4 a few months. I've decided 2 dropby her house in da nite. Imade several calls 2 several frenz n in da end it was oni me n Teng that went 2 Mendy's.
From the 1st glance of Mendy's face, I oni can picture 1 word in my mind >>> LONELINESS. She was so bored in her own home.>.<
So with all 3 of us, we talked. Bout lots of things. 1 topic, I was quite surprised. Teng actually told me tht the day we went clubbin which was last saturday, she had been watchin over me especially when I was dancin with my ex-skulmate, Ricky. I had 2 admit I was a lil tipsy but still aware of wats happenin that time. Teng told me that wat she saw. 2 wat she said, it was somethn like when I was dancin with my back facin Ricky with him facin me (it was dirty dancin~no grindin on privates tho) He had love-bite me on da neck...! Well, now that I thought of it, I remembered that he did place his head on my shoulder then I felt somethn like skin on my neck. All I thought was that when he placed his head on my shoulder obviously his cheeks would touch my neck. Seems like it was his lips afterall. (Luckily I din get a mark or else I would die when I c my parents)
after a lil chat we even watched TV 2gether. That was the time when a scene of a baby turtle that was so tiny appeared crawling beside It's HUGE mom did Teng started giving out a gigle 2 a chuckle 2 a laugh... GOD I dono how 2 descibe it but it really made da both borin Mendy n ME laugh till outr tears started 2 fall.
later Mendy asked me if I had her crush's hp 4 he happen 2 be our beloved classmate also. I answered no n she requested 2 take a look at my hp. I was bz watchin Animal Planet on astro when she yelled "He called back!" 4 all i noe that time is that she actualy borrowed my hp 2 miss call him.. Curses... I din really noe dat guy much... So i had 2 pick up... N with that, he got 2 noe my number, n he said he will call me out 2 yam cha anytime.. Curses...
After 2 hours or so, I decided it was time 2 leave as it was gettin late. It was nearin 1am. So me n Teng left Mendy's. That's when Teng told me she was Hungry... ... ... So we decided 2 go mamak. Ate then I send her home.
From the 1st glance of Mendy's face, I oni can picture 1 word in my mind >>> LONELINESS. She was so bored in her own home.>.<
So with all 3 of us, we talked. Bout lots of things. 1 topic, I was quite surprised. Teng actually told me tht the day we went clubbin which was last saturday, she had been watchin over me especially when I was dancin with my ex-skulmate, Ricky. I had 2 admit I was a lil tipsy but still aware of wats happenin that time. Teng told me that wat she saw. 2 wat she said, it was somethn like when I was dancin with my back facin Ricky with him facin me (it was dirty dancin~no grindin on privates tho) He had love-bite me on da neck...! Well, now that I thought of it, I remembered that he did place his head on my shoulder then I felt somethn like skin on my neck. All I thought was that when he placed his head on my shoulder obviously his cheeks would touch my neck. Seems like it was his lips afterall. (Luckily I din get a mark or else I would die when I c my parents)
after a lil chat we even watched TV 2gether. That was the time when a scene of a baby turtle that was so tiny appeared crawling beside It's HUGE mom did Teng started giving out a gigle 2 a chuckle 2 a laugh... GOD I dono how 2 descibe it but it really made da both borin Mendy n ME laugh till outr tears started 2 fall.
later Mendy asked me if I had her crush's hp 4 he happen 2 be our beloved classmate also. I answered no n she requested 2 take a look at my hp. I was bz watchin Animal Planet on astro when she yelled "He called back!" 4 all i noe that time is that she actualy borrowed my hp 2 miss call him.. Curses... I din really noe dat guy much... So i had 2 pick up... N with that, he got 2 noe my number, n he said he will call me out 2 yam cha anytime.. Curses...
After 2 hours or so, I decided it was time 2 leave as it was gettin late. It was nearin 1am. So me n Teng left Mendy's. That's when Teng told me she was Hungry... ... ... So we decided 2 go mamak. Ate then I send her home.
Clubb my ass off again...
It's saturday nite so no prob in gettin out of da house n no worryin if I'll wake up in time time 4 somethn da nex day. So since these nice ex-classmates of mine invited me, Y not^^
Ruums again^^ Music was boomin n galz went in 4 free. Guys ordered some liqior n we all drank. I got totally tipsy. I noe cz I couldn stand straight n was laughin a lot, but I still noe wat was ppl sayin. Dancin was a blast, well it always was. Dis time dirty dancin a lot with my guy frenx. Some guys that i dono offered me a drink but I rejected cz I noe da danger of gettin free drink from total strangers.
When I was back at da table. I kept on drinkin, then I saw my gal fren kissin my best buddy!!! Ohmigod... They were totally in it. it wasn long when I realised da guy frenz that were standin beside me (we're close frenz) tried 2 pull me in 4 a kiss as well. I screamed, he let go. Nex thing, another 1 pull me in, again I screamed, he let go^^ LUCKY!!! Altho I'm cravin 4 some intimacy, I had 2 control myself. I din 1 myself gettin all "dirty". So i continued dancin while sometimes my guy frenx would join in 2 do some dirty dancin.
We danced till da club close. It was nearing 3.30am. I was wiped out. my foot also hurt from all da dancin with high heels. It was then I drifted 2 a corner 2 sit since I could stand nicely. A stranger (guy) saw me n walked over. He asked me where did I stay. Being oni tipsy n not drunk, I clearly knew wat he meant. Havin da feelin that if I said where I stayed, he might think of offerin me a ride n somethn could've happened. So I jz said I stayed at my home. After some attempts of tryin 2 get info bout me from me, I was jz playin drunk all da way, till finally the guys from my group turned their heads n saw me. They came over 4 da rescue, YEA!!!
Ruums again^^ Music was boomin n galz went in 4 free. Guys ordered some liqior n we all drank. I got totally tipsy. I noe cz I couldn stand straight n was laughin a lot, but I still noe wat was ppl sayin. Dancin was a blast, well it always was. Dis time dirty dancin a lot with my guy frenx. Some guys that i dono offered me a drink but I rejected cz I noe da danger of gettin free drink from total strangers.
When I was back at da table. I kept on drinkin, then I saw my gal fren kissin my best buddy!!! Ohmigod... They were totally in it. it wasn long when I realised da guy frenz that were standin beside me (we're close frenz) tried 2 pull me in 4 a kiss as well. I screamed, he let go. Nex thing, another 1 pull me in, again I screamed, he let go^^ LUCKY!!! Altho I'm cravin 4 some intimacy, I had 2 control myself. I din 1 myself gettin all "dirty". So i continued dancin while sometimes my guy frenx would join in 2 do some dirty dancin.
We danced till da club close. It was nearing 3.30am. I was wiped out. my foot also hurt from all da dancin with high heels. It was then I drifted 2 a corner 2 sit since I could stand nicely. A stranger (guy) saw me n walked over. He asked me where did I stay. Being oni tipsy n not drunk, I clearly knew wat he meant. Havin da feelin that if I said where I stayed, he might think of offerin me a ride n somethn could've happened. So I jz said I stayed at my home. After some attempts of tryin 2 get info bout me from me, I was jz playin drunk all da way, till finally the guys from my group turned their heads n saw me. They came over 4 da rescue, YEA!!!
AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
It's a Wednesday n class 4 da nex day was cancelled.. But I din care. nth was my concern... I oni new I walked aimlessly most of da time, drove blindly n nearly crashed 2...
Damnit, 2day was a really sucky day. Damn it was like hell. I din feel like talkin 2 any1 at all. Din feel like eatin most of da time. SUX. But I wont tell u wat happened...
Damnit, 2day was a really sucky day. Damn it was like hell. I din feel like talkin 2 any1 at all. Din feel like eatin most of da time. SUX. But I wont tell u wat happened...
Head painin!!!
Die la... HIS bro's weddin dinner is comin. It's dis sat. I mean yea obviously I'm lookin forward 2 it.
But I dono y, the closer the dinner, the more pain I felt. It was throbbin. I noe I was sufferin. I can't even hold back much in front of my frenz. Even the effort of puttin a smile on my face was hard. I din want my any1 2 c my pain. I din 1 any1 2 worry. I'm so sorry but I really couldn forget him. N all the memories he has given me was diggin deeper n deeper in2 the wound in my heart.
The weddin... I plan 2 go as a fren. I bought the dress n all especially 4 it. It was special 4 me. I felt like that family was already another family of mine. It was hard 4 me 2 let go, not oni the guy, but all other family members of his. I am happy.. yet sad in a way. I was happy that they can get married happily^^ but sad cz I was goin 2 a dinner with some1 I wasn't ready 2 face.
Even now, another 5 days 2 the dinner, my heart was already heavier than ever. I'm not sayin this jz 2 make it feel like some poetic ppl but I can totally feel it, I noe now wat it meant by the pain in heart after loosin some1 u love with all yr heart. It was pain. pain that I can't endure. T.T
It cant be seen, cant be help. cant be saved either.
But I dono y, the closer the dinner, the more pain I felt. It was throbbin. I noe I was sufferin. I can't even hold back much in front of my frenz. Even the effort of puttin a smile on my face was hard. I din want my any1 2 c my pain. I din 1 any1 2 worry. I'm so sorry but I really couldn forget him. N all the memories he has given me was diggin deeper n deeper in2 the wound in my heart.
The weddin... I plan 2 go as a fren. I bought the dress n all especially 4 it. It was special 4 me. I felt like that family was already another family of mine. It was hard 4 me 2 let go, not oni the guy, but all other family members of his. I am happy.. yet sad in a way. I was happy that they can get married happily^^ but sad cz I was goin 2 a dinner with some1 I wasn't ready 2 face.
Even now, another 5 days 2 the dinner, my heart was already heavier than ever. I'm not sayin this jz 2 make it feel like some poetic ppl but I can totally feel it, I noe now wat it meant by the pain in heart after loosin some1 u love with all yr heart. It was pain. pain that I can't endure. T.T
It cant be seen, cant be help. cant be saved either.
The Other Way Around
If yr frenz of mine, U should noe that recently in da past an incident had caused a scar in my heart. N cause of that...
When guy frens talk bout sex, reationships, women, n life.
Past >>> Talk along, reaply weird questions asked (cz I'm a gal), find males in this world can be damn funny when it comes 2 questionin bout those topics.
Present >>> Feels like walkin away, dodge the questions as much as possible.
When gal frenz talk bout guys.
Past >>> Cheerfully talk along.
Present >>> Dont invite me, I do not want 2 be reminded bout how worst guys can be.
When guy frenz flirt 4 fun with me.
Past >>> Tag along as if there weren't a care in the world. Jz make sure don go over board.
Present >>> Can u find some1 else? I'm not in the mood. Yr way of flirtin will jz make me sick.
When gal frenz tlak bout their crushes or lovers.
Past >>> Join in n want 2 noe more bout their stories^^
Present >>> U noe wat? Can U jz STFU! I don want 2 start hatin u.
When I see cuties anywhere at all^^
Past >>> I hav the intention of gettin close or noewin them more. Sometimes I even flirt. Cant believe it.
Present >>> 1st thing that I can think of? Cuties? Nice face, but sick heart.
When I see couples outside.
Past >>> Reminds me of the happy moment n how sweet he can be. *smiles
Present >>> Reminds me of the forbidden memories I wished 2 forget n I jz felt like tearin the couple a part. * walks away
When close frenz talk bout him n him oni as a topic.
Past >>> Tell them all bout it, both happy n sad moments.
Present >>> Can u leave me alone? U oni can talk bout him when I start talkin bout him.
When I'm alone in the corner.
Past >>> If u come, U start talkin, I start pourin out.
Present >>> Best leave me alone. But still if u come, don say I din warn u, might swear till yr pants drop. So it's best U don even look. jz care 4 me from a distance.
Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............................................
When guy frens talk bout sex, reationships, women, n life.
Past >>> Talk along, reaply weird questions asked (cz I'm a gal), find males in this world can be damn funny when it comes 2 questionin bout those topics.
Present >>> Feels like walkin away, dodge the questions as much as possible.
When gal frenz talk bout guys.
Past >>> Cheerfully talk along.
Present >>> Dont invite me, I do not want 2 be reminded bout how worst guys can be.
When guy frenz flirt 4 fun with me.
Past >>> Tag along as if there weren't a care in the world. Jz make sure don go over board.
Present >>> Can u find some1 else? I'm not in the mood. Yr way of flirtin will jz make me sick.
When gal frenz tlak bout their crushes or lovers.
Past >>> Join in n want 2 noe more bout their stories^^
Present >>> U noe wat? Can U jz STFU! I don want 2 start hatin u.
When I see cuties anywhere at all^^
Past >>> I hav the intention of gettin close or noewin them more. Sometimes I even flirt. Cant believe it.
Present >>> 1st thing that I can think of? Cuties? Nice face, but sick heart.
When I see couples outside.
Past >>> Reminds me of the happy moment n how sweet he can be. *smiles
Present >>> Reminds me of the forbidden memories I wished 2 forget n I jz felt like tearin the couple a part. * walks away
When close frenz talk bout him n him oni as a topic.
Past >>> Tell them all bout it, both happy n sad moments.
Present >>> Can u leave me alone? U oni can talk bout him when I start talkin bout him.
When I'm alone in the corner.
Past >>> If u come, U start talkin, I start pourin out.
Present >>> Best leave me alone. But still if u come, don say I din warn u, might swear till yr pants drop. So it's best U don even look. jz care 4 me from a distance.
Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............................................
The Break Up...
It was already 3 long weeks since my break up with my 1 1/2 year boyfren. Well, still sober in heart now, dono wat 2 say. Mayb a lil advice from frenz might help^^
I've been smilin n laughin out loud all day but when it comes 2 nite time, tears come rolllin with no endin 2 it at all. It was like wheneva I was about 2 go 2 bed his face will jz POP!!! in my head. After days n days I must admit his face is startin 2 blur off till I cant really remember how he looks like. Untill...
It was last nite when I had a really weird dream. I dreamt of him again. but this time, it seemed so real. So real till I can remember every detail in it. I was in my room, still with my old bed. He was sittin ryte beside me on da bed. Weird thing is, there was a violin at the corner of my room, unopened in its bag n untouched.
1st I asked him y was there a violin, he replied by sayin he was gonna play it. So i was happy n asked him 2 teach me sometime. The thought of the breakin up n the question of y he came back popped up in my head. I was reluctant 2 ask but drew back my words. I din 1 2 loose him again. sob... sob... Nway, that time he was lookin at me with those soft eyes of his, N I was starin back. The admosphere turned a lil.... Quiet. Then, I jz touched his face with my hand. The touch seemed so real, his face... soft, warm... he was still starin at me... I can feel my mouth slippin, goin 2 say wat I had in mind. He held my hand, which made me kept my words again. I merely said I missed him. He nodded, n said I noe. I was goin 2 burst in tears when I... WOKE UP!! DAMNIT... but then, in da dream, everythn seemed so real, till it was like I was really there, Being able 2 c his face clearly n this time I remembered it well 2^^
This dream, n him in it, had given me inspiration n also believe... Believen that this may happen or mayb Some miracles can happen. Even if they don happen, at least I hav had a chance 2 c him clearly after so long... heh hhe... I was about 2 slowly 4get bout him, but now da dream made me pull back n remember him again.
HOW AM I GONNA LET GO LIKE DAT>.<
I've been smilin n laughin out loud all day but when it comes 2 nite time, tears come rolllin with no endin 2 it at all. It was like wheneva I was about 2 go 2 bed his face will jz POP!!! in my head. After days n days I must admit his face is startin 2 blur off till I cant really remember how he looks like. Untill...
It was last nite when I had a really weird dream. I dreamt of him again. but this time, it seemed so real. So real till I can remember every detail in it. I was in my room, still with my old bed. He was sittin ryte beside me on da bed. Weird thing is, there was a violin at the corner of my room, unopened in its bag n untouched.
1st I asked him y was there a violin, he replied by sayin he was gonna play it. So i was happy n asked him 2 teach me sometime. The thought of the breakin up n the question of y he came back popped up in my head. I was reluctant 2 ask but drew back my words. I din 1 2 loose him again. sob... sob... Nway, that time he was lookin at me with those soft eyes of his, N I was starin back. The admosphere turned a lil.... Quiet. Then, I jz touched his face with my hand. The touch seemed so real, his face... soft, warm... he was still starin at me... I can feel my mouth slippin, goin 2 say wat I had in mind. He held my hand, which made me kept my words again. I merely said I missed him. He nodded, n said I noe. I was goin 2 burst in tears when I... WOKE UP!! DAMNIT... but then, in da dream, everythn seemed so real, till it was like I was really there, Being able 2 c his face clearly n this time I remembered it well 2^^
This dream, n him in it, had given me inspiration n also believe... Believen that this may happen or mayb Some miracles can happen. Even if they don happen, at least I hav had a chance 2 c him clearly after so long... heh hhe... I was about 2 slowly 4get bout him, but now da dream made me pull back n remember him again.
HOW AM I GONNA LET GO LIKE DAT>.<
Heart Attack!!! ~~ PASS!
I Passed!! I passed!!! I friggin passed it^^ I Passed my drivin test~~
It was really early when I started waitin 4 da friggin van 2 come pick me up from da Sri Petaling branch all da way 2 take my exam in Hulu Langat. I waited in da chillin air 4 bout 2 hours n still no sign of da van... Wat The Hell!!! In da end I called my mom 2 call da boss n she replied sayin da van broke down some where. but after like 10 minutes after da call, da van FINALLY arrived.
Reached there n waited 4 my turn. I was 2 go 4 on da road exam 1st which is 2 drive on da road alongside with all da other cars. 1st word dat popped in my head-------DIE! Cz I totally sucked in dat! ><>.< Anyway, In da end I passed^^
Later, took da parkin, 3 point turn n da slope drivin like a piece of cake^^ I even took it in a happy mood cz there's no waitin at all, jz run 2 da car, get da slip, pass it 2 da fella dats gonna look n mark it, then DRIVE^^ As long as u don bump in2 any tiang then ok adi 1. N I am damn confident I wont. In da end I passed it also!!
So means I passed da whole test^^ I can drive... Wonder how long I hav 2 wait 2 get my license???
Went home n called my uncle straight away 2 get me a car^^ Not gonna tell u wat car I'm gettin^^ Don worry, jz an average car^^
It was really early when I started waitin 4 da friggin van 2 come pick me up from da Sri Petaling branch all da way 2 take my exam in Hulu Langat. I waited in da chillin air 4 bout 2 hours n still no sign of da van... Wat The Hell!!! In da end I called my mom 2 call da boss n she replied sayin da van broke down some where. but after like 10 minutes after da call, da van FINALLY arrived.
Reached there n waited 4 my turn. I was 2 go 4 on da road exam 1st which is 2 drive on da road alongside with all da other cars. 1st word dat popped in my head-------DIE! Cz I totally sucked in dat! ><>.< Anyway, In da end I passed^^
Later, took da parkin, 3 point turn n da slope drivin like a piece of cake^^ I even took it in a happy mood cz there's no waitin at all, jz run 2 da car, get da slip, pass it 2 da fella dats gonna look n mark it, then DRIVE^^ As long as u don bump in2 any tiang then ok adi 1. N I am damn confident I wont. In da end I passed it also!!
So means I passed da whole test^^ I can drive... Wonder how long I hav 2 wait 2 get my license???
Went home n called my uncle straight away 2 get me a car^^ Not gonna tell u wat car I'm gettin^^ Don worry, jz an average car^^
Withered Legs....
It's da last class b4 I go 4 da test. It was Drivin, half of me was eager yet MORE than half of me is scared... Scared I will not pass... >.<
Woke up at 7am 2 head 2 Ulu Langat. It was fun being able 2 drive on da highway n u're not scared of any cops. Can say I was a lil tired due 2 the lil sleep where I slept at 4.30am last nite after quarrelin with my bf n goin out with my gal frenz 2 hav a drink.
There I was doin wat I should do, like goin 2 da slope trainin, da side parkin n da 3-point turn. I was singin n hunmmin my own song untillllll.........
I spotted a guy, same as me, learnin how 2 drive n goin through the same course as me. I din really care much tho. But after always endin up linin up after his car or his car after mine, I did notice he always stared a while at me... Was my face weird, I dono??? Well, he DID look a lil like my ex but I was certain it wasn him cz he was 1 yr older than me n if he wanted drive he wouldn hav learnt oni now. More over his stare wasn like my ex at all.
I continued 2 take no notice but actually behind I was always takin lil peeks at him... (The truth is he was quite cute, n cuteness r 4 ppl 2 stare....) xP But I still went home without havin his number haha...
Throughout da whole 4 hour drivin session, I din hav anythin 2 eat. N I DIN EAT B4 I CAME OUT 2>< So I was practically starvin 2 death in the car. Da mamak was jz a lil walk away, still I din 1 2 waste my parents money on dis drivin session so I ignored my growling-non-stop tummy n continued my course.
After drivin many times on da highway, I was really aware of how Malaysians drive now. They don really care bout the others around them really. ESPECIALLY LORRIES, They drive like there's no other ppl in da world 4 they're not even scared of they get scraped or wat cz they're tails r made of wood (made my confidence low) ... Haiz, Nearly got banged on da way home in a turnin (it reduced my confidence even more on passin my drivin test)... Hate da way ppl drive. >.<
Woke up at 7am 2 head 2 Ulu Langat. It was fun being able 2 drive on da highway n u're not scared of any cops. Can say I was a lil tired due 2 the lil sleep where I slept at 4.30am last nite after quarrelin with my bf n goin out with my gal frenz 2 hav a drink.
There I was doin wat I should do, like goin 2 da slope trainin, da side parkin n da 3-point turn. I was singin n hunmmin my own song untillllll.........
I spotted a guy, same as me, learnin how 2 drive n goin through the same course as me. I din really care much tho. But after always endin up linin up after his car or his car after mine, I did notice he always stared a while at me... Was my face weird, I dono??? Well, he DID look a lil like my ex but I was certain it wasn him cz he was 1 yr older than me n if he wanted drive he wouldn hav learnt oni now. More over his stare wasn like my ex at all.
I continued 2 take no notice but actually behind I was always takin lil peeks at him... (The truth is he was quite cute, n cuteness r 4 ppl 2 stare....) xP But I still went home without havin his number haha...
Throughout da whole 4 hour drivin session, I din hav anythin 2 eat. N I DIN EAT B4 I CAME OUT 2>< So I was practically starvin 2 death in the car. Da mamak was jz a lil walk away, still I din 1 2 waste my parents money on dis drivin session so I ignored my growling-non-stop tummy n continued my course.
After drivin many times on da highway, I was really aware of how Malaysians drive now. They don really care bout the others around them really. ESPECIALLY LORRIES, They drive like there's no other ppl in da world 4 they're not even scared of they get scraped or wat cz they're tails r made of wood (made my confidence low) ... Haiz, Nearly got banged on da way home in a turnin (it reduced my confidence even more on passin my drivin test)... Hate da way ppl drive. >.<
Extreme Dissapointment
it was Thursday nite n everythin is goin as planned. It was a nite 4 clubbin. We planne d2 go 4 Maison. In the end we ended up in Ruums. 2 cars were goin. 1 from sunway n 1 from bukit jalil.
Few Dissapointments... All tho sorry la, I couldn really say i minded much that time, but actually the fact is , I DO CARE A HELL LOT!!!
>>1. Sunway car got lost on da way 2 my house when we're suppose 2 meet up at my house.
>>2. Sunway car was late when BJ car arrived much earlier at KLCC after we say 2 meet there.
>>3. Sunway car lost track of BJ car when we're suppose 2 lead them 2 Maison due 2 a police blockin 4 da car between BJ car n Sunway car.
>>4. Sunway car HAD NO CHOICE but 2 meet BJ car back at KLCC so we can lead again^^""
>>5. Sunway car ended up havin a punctured tyre ryte behind KLCC n had no jack 2 lift da car up.
>>6. Sunway car driver called mom bou tda prob n was asked 2 go back home straight.
>>7. Sunway ppl in Sunway car all had 2 go back due 2 no transport 2 go home later if hitch a ride with BJ car.
>>8. A whole weeks plan goes down 2 dust.
But the BJ car still had fun la. We went 2 Ruums in da end altho it was like almost 1.30-2am. havin da guys tellin me my dressin was hot, I danced on da stage like no one's business with da other ppl on da stage^^ Think my frenz must hav thought I was drunk after dunkin down a whole bottle of beer straight... >< (The fact that I'm not) anyway, went makan after club at Kuchai Lama... after eatin we went 2 my frenz apartment's rooftop. N played games^^ Hehe, as if every thin dat nite wasn enough^^ It was 5am n it still wasn enough,
THE NITE IS STILL YOUNG>.<
Well bout da game, I wont tell in detail cz U don hav 2 noe^^ privattteeee ma, if not y play our besties game on a rooftop with guards running around^^ it was fun la no matter wat..
Ps: we played da game 4 1 hour, if it was a dirty game it wouldn be oni 1 hour, so don even imagine wat it is.
After being all satisfied n glad n tired, we all went back home^^ few had early work n skul at 7am... n we all went back at 6am! 4 da record, I actualy slept at 7am after callin my Hunk up 4 work, n shut my whole body till 3.30pm da next day... woke up straight 4 piano class...
Few Dissapointments... All tho sorry la, I couldn really say i minded much that time, but actually the fact is , I DO CARE A HELL LOT!!!
>>1. Sunway car got lost on da way 2 my house when we're suppose 2 meet up at my house.
>>2. Sunway car was late when BJ car arrived much earlier at KLCC after we say 2 meet there.
>>3. Sunway car lost track of BJ car when we're suppose 2 lead them 2 Maison due 2 a police blockin 4 da car between BJ car n Sunway car.
>>4. Sunway car HAD NO CHOICE but 2 meet BJ car back at KLCC so we can lead again^^""
>>5. Sunway car ended up havin a punctured tyre ryte behind KLCC n had no jack 2 lift da car up.
>>6. Sunway car driver called mom bou tda prob n was asked 2 go back home straight.
>>7. Sunway ppl in Sunway car all had 2 go back due 2 no transport 2 go home later if hitch a ride with BJ car.
>>8. A whole weeks plan goes down 2 dust.
But the BJ car still had fun la. We went 2 Ruums in da end altho it was like almost 1.30-2am. havin da guys tellin me my dressin was hot, I danced on da stage like no one's business with da other ppl on da stage^^ Think my frenz must hav thought I was drunk after dunkin down a whole bottle of beer straight... >< (The fact that I'm not) anyway, went makan after club at Kuchai Lama... after eatin we went 2 my frenz apartment's rooftop. N played games^^ Hehe, as if every thin dat nite wasn enough^^ It was 5am n it still wasn enough,
THE NITE IS STILL YOUNG>.<
Well bout da game, I wont tell in detail cz U don hav 2 noe^^ privattteeee ma, if not y play our besties game on a rooftop with guards running around^^ it was fun la no matter wat..
Ps: we played da game 4 1 hour, if it was a dirty game it wouldn be oni 1 hour, so don even imagine wat it is.
After being all satisfied n glad n tired, we all went back home^^ few had early work n skul at 7am... n we all went back at 6am! 4 da record, I actualy slept at 7am after callin my Hunk up 4 work, n shut my whole body till 3.30pm da next day... woke up straight 4 piano class...
Malfunctionism = Comtemp dance
After days of research on Comtemtporary dances n also days of thinkin how 2 project da malfunctionism in it, I finally found out dat malfunctionism IS comtemporary itself!!!
Malfunctionism like confision n gettin ppl 2 interprete somethn their own way or even no interpretion at all... So its juz like contemp dance cz it really has no meanin 2 it at all, jz lettin ppl guess wat is it tryin 2 tell u really gets ppl confuse. O.o
So they're both the same meanin after all. So no need 2 think much^^ Zi Hao!!! I can conduct yr Passion 4 da Apple dance adi^^
Malfunctionism like confision n gettin ppl 2 interprete somethn their own way or even no interpretion at all... So its juz like contemp dance cz it really has no meanin 2 it at all, jz lettin ppl guess wat is it tryin 2 tell u really gets ppl confuse. O.o
So they're both the same meanin after all. So no need 2 think much^^ Zi Hao!!! I can conduct yr Passion 4 da Apple dance adi^^
Nite Out... Till Da club Closes!!!
Nite ryte b4 Penang trip... > went clubbin...
__Did a lil ??? dance with Mengq Yek. Surprised when he danced half way n kneeled on da floor O.o" But... Was fascinated!!! Luved his dance^^ Even did some dirty dances (Imagine 4 a whole term I've nvr even touched him on da shoulder b4 O.o)
__Danced TOTAL DIRTY dance with Summer. Juz danced without caring wat ppl might c. ^^
__Danced on da main stage of Ruums. Felt jz like I'm entertainin da crowd but of course, every1's bz either dancin or drinkin^^ I danced like I was drunk but actually of course I din drink at all^^
__Danced da very last song with Yek (it was a slow love song), hugged him tight n danced jz like those in a night ballroom. very lovey-dovey but of course there's no spark in it at all cz we're jz frenz^^ (tho I do feel really warm n safe in his hug)
Who... > My ex bf, Micheal ( long time no c)
My ex drawing class fren, Summer ( I missed her)
My College mate from another class, Lau Mengq Yek ( he's nvr been clubbin)
When... > the Nite b4 CD071-1 Departed 4 penang
Where... > Ruums ( don ask y of all places)
Where... > Ruums ( don ask y of all places)
How... > U don really need 2 noe
Which... > ??? (there is no which in this)
Why... > 4 DA SICK OF DANCIN DAMNIT!!!
Nway, Summer crashed at my place 1st that nite> helped make up each other^^ > make each other look hot then rated each other on a scale of (nice)1-10(naughty) ^^
"found" Mengq Yek on da steps of da main block. Seriously I hav 2 say, 1 look n he really looks different... Gives me a different feelin from da normal Yek, Different from da catwalk Yek, different from da Drama Yek 2^^ Dressed in black colar buttoned top n well, of course da normal long pants ppl wear 2 clubbin (not jeans nor Hip hop baggies), he does certainly look hot in it^^ Makes me wanna pull him out 2 dance later. Haha *chuckles* N talk bout 1st time goin clubbin... ( sure doesn dress like a 1st timer) -_-"
Micheal picked us up at my place n we went all da way in2 parkin at Ruums to find dat SUMMER DIN BRING HER IC!!! O.o'' I did remind her 2 bring her ic jz b4 we're leavin, guess she's as blur as me cz I think she din hear me (even with jz da both of us in da room). So we've decided 2 try our luck 2 jz walk in2 Ruums, N it SUCCEDED^^ *Phew*
Danced danced danced, while da guys din 1 2 dance. My guys Don wanna dance n other guys kept poundin their bodies all over me n Summer, WTF!!! I mean, get the point la, if I don make body contact with u at all when I dance, means I'm not interested!!! I decided 2 pull either 1 of MY guys 2 da dance floor^^ 1st it was failure then they seem 2 start 2 enjoy da music. ^^
Few things I did at the Dance floor in Ruums>>> 
__Did a lil latin with all da twirls n bent downs With Micheal cz he use 2 be in da same dance class with me, but now he stopped -_-" it was hot, I really luv it^^
__Did a lil ??? dance with Mengq Yek. Surprised when he danced half way n kneeled on da floor O.o" But... Was fascinated!!! Luved his dance^^ Even did some dirty dances (Imagine 4 a whole term I've nvr even touched him on da shoulder b4 O.o)
__Danced TOTAL DIRTY dance with Summer. Juz danced without caring wat ppl might c. ^^
__Danced on da main stage of Ruums. Felt jz like I'm entertainin da crowd but of course, every1's bz either dancin or drinkin^^ I danced like I was drunk but actually of course I din drink at all^^
__Danced da very last song with Yek (it was a slow love song), hugged him tight n danced jz like those in a night ballroom. very lovey-dovey but of course there's no spark in it at all cz we're jz frenz^^ (tho I do feel really warm n safe in his hug)
I saw Micheal n summer dancin 2gether... Cute^^
Me dancin with Yek... .... .... Safe n sound I guess.... ... ... ( think i'd like 2 hug him n dance more) N those guys out there (whoeve I love n loves me back) DON GET JEALOUS!!! Its jz a dance... (well, u can call it cute or hot or wateva u 1 with it, Yek... )
There's even dis malay guy dancin with me , tho I totally hav no interest in dancin with him wat so eva. He suddenly brushed his crotch on2 me when we were dancin YUCKSS!!! Oh well, its crowded in there anyway... But... really.. I can feel it standin... GROSS!!! Still it's dancin... Y din my frenz save me (T-T) *sob sob*
Striked some funny poses when we were gonna leave. check it out ><
PS: Ahem... It's jz a pose so don go Ohhh! n Ahhh! over it...
N 4 those who are curious wat time we got home, It's 4.30am.
Confusionism...
It was hard 2 understand when Zi Hao 1st told me bout his Theory Of Apples. I caught a lil but then found dat I din at all.. he was tryin really hard 2 explain it 2 me while I kept thinkin n thinkin wat he meant... -_-"
Dis was da convo>>>
Simone*~ : yr philosophy?
Simone*~ : actually do u really need me 2 out with a Passion of Apple dance?
ZH: yea, I need a dance for the series, but I wouldn't know when can I really put the whole series to stage
ZH: it needs some time for rehearsals and discussion with somebody else Idont know which platform, dontk now when and who and all the logistics going on but I strill need a dance
Simone*~:well...
Simone*~: I need 2 noe wat dance u 1
Simone*~: A lot 2 ask
ZH: yea I know
Simone*~: of not later u scold me 4 not meetin yr requirement....
ZH: when you choreograph, do you write it down or how?
Simone*~: mm..not really...
ZH: I never scold.... y?
ZH: ...
Simone*~: jjk
Simone*~: normally i don write down
ZH: is it possible to wrtie down a 'dance' ?
Simone*~: I juz dance da steps till I can remmeber n dance with da music
Simone*~: not really
Simone*~: oni 4 formationns
Simone*~: other than that
ZH: ooo
Simone*~: no
Simone*~: yea
Simone*~: unless yr step has a certain name
Simone*~: but those are oni like general dances
ZH: Theory of Apple is a philosophy, that takes 'apple' as a subject, not as 'apple' itself
ZH: it is not a random option, but with reasons
ZH: apples have two basic colours, red and green that contradict each other
ZH: a similar object with ambivalent elements
Simone*~ : ambivalent???
Simone*~: meanin?
ZH: like love and hate
ZH: one thing with two contrastic elements
Simone*~: i c
Simone*~ : can understan
ZH: so, on how we perceive red and green apples both or altogether, can be depicted as something we wanted to tell
ZH:maybe we won't know, but we will know it later
Simone*~: mmhmm
ZH: so, the perception of our mental towards the apples, is confusing, it's like why we see a similarity with two contrast colours
ZH: so the perception is manifold, is very vibrant
Simone*~ : manifold???
ZH: so I called it Malfunctionism
ZH: Malfunctionism : to further understand one's mentality by placing oneself into a mental subconsciousness, then perplex one's mentality and thus, forcing one to think and reconstruct the mental imaginary
ZH: according to Sigmund Freud
Simone*~:u noe...i can oni get a lil out of all dis...
Simone*~:Sorry...
Simone*~ : I'm a quite blur in mind person
ZH: that's why I am epxlaning
ZH: ok. for exmaple
Simone*~ : a lot of hard words...
Simone*~: i may get an A in english
ZH: what is the colour of the green apple?
Simone*~ : but not till dis good
Simone*~ :Green N the other is red... I can c u say its contrast
Simone*~ : totally different colors brings out totally dif meanin n messages
ZH: you are confusing yourself now
Simone*~ : It sux 2 be me
Simone*~ : u don mind me being so dumb ryte
ZH: or, another example from theory of apple: if I eat alot of apples, that doesn't mean that I like them, that means that I wanted to crush them and destroy as much as possible
ZH: you are not dumb
Simone*~ : I really 1 2 noe yr plosophy but...
ZH:theory of apple is an absurd, sarcastic, ironic art theory
ZH: so it's like something/one thing, that will invoke two different interpretations
Simone*~ :isn that wat I said
Simone*~ :or wasn it???
ZH: I utilize 'apples' as subjects to explain the whole 'malfunctionism'
Simone*~ :Die la
Simone*~ :@@ Confusin myself
ZH: that is malfunctionism
ZH:confuse yourself in order to reconstruct another clear image in mind
Simone*~: brings 2 dif messages?
ZH: not necessarily 2 of coruse
ZH: berings different messages that sometimes bear a contrasting elements
Simone*~ : like like n dislike...?
ZH: can be
Simone*~ : I'm gettin 50%... i think
ZH: sometimes, when people ask us 1+1 = ?
Simone*~ : 11^^
ZH: and some people will say 2, some 3, some 11, some say a chineseword
ZH: this is an exampler of malfunctionism
ZH:something very simple, but we made it complicated by our own nature
ZH: and we eventually interpret it to further extent until to a limit that we confuse ourselves
ZH:if somebody ask you what is the colour of a red apple, most probably you will think deeper before you answer
ZH: because you are choosing between the logic and the creativity
ZH: the tussle of logic and art is theory of apple a theory, or is it a stupid propaganda of art
Simone*~: its up 2 u 2 c it
ZH:yea
ZH:Malfunctionism is a kind of thing that will foster you to think deeper than surface , force you to think until you manage to confuse yourself, and make you collapse, so that you will reconstruct another 'renew' version in your understanding
ZH: so is it Malfunction a function or is it mere malfunction
ZH:the whole thing is meant to be like that
Simone*~ :so its like
Simone*~ : smth can bring dif messages... smtmes even contrastin 1's
ZH: yup
Simone*~ : wat does malfunctionism links with dis point
ZH: with which point?
Simone*~ : da smth can bring dif messages point Izzit...
ZH: no, malfunction is about our mind
ZH: not about the question
ZH: the question that will invoke confusion to our brain can be called malfunction
Simone*~: cz like I don wanna answer sometn from da surface but sometn dats not visible
ZH: and the 'happenings' depend on our mental
Simone*~ : n I @.@ meself
ZH: it is like why humans think deeper than the surface, is it a necessity, or should humans think deeper than what we thought
Simone*~: So malfunctionism is smth like, smth that can make me tnk deep n confuse myself... like add math....?
Simone*~ :The answer is there but I was thinkin all day n juz couldn find da answer when It was ryte under my nose...ryte?
ZH: yea
Simone*~ : I got it O.o
Simone*~: I got yr meanin but dance...
Simone*~: da apple portrays malfunctionism ryte?
Simone*~ : so how dya show passion 4 it... in a dance? @.@
ZH : I just want to show passion in apple
Da followin convo after dat will not be posted cz I;m juz plat tired now. (Dis convo is a lil clean cz I scrapped off da scar in betweens like Ooo n Mmm's... )
Anyway, It was damn hard 2 understand at 1st but later it juz started 2 come clean.. but da dance part... mmm, guess it will be a lil prob a show passion 4 it... i m guessin oni Zi hao would noe how 2 express that... @.@
next he excitedly showed me a comtemp dance on youtube. 4 da very 1st time I actually don c any artistic theory like him In Him!!! Surprised me a lil. He juz couldn wait 4 me 2 c it, like a lil kid coulsn wait 2 get their ice cream^^ It was cute^^ he was like sendin da link on youtube over n over 2 me on msn, askin me 2 must c it...
(but 4 some ppl's info, I hav no interest in him so don worry... U noe who I fancy) ^^
Dis was da convo>>>
Simone*~ : yr philosophy?
Simone*~ : actually do u really need me 2 out with a Passion of Apple dance?
ZH: yea, I need a dance for the series, but I wouldn't know when can I really put the whole series to stage
ZH: it needs some time for rehearsals and discussion with somebody else Idont know which platform, dontk now when and who and all the logistics going on but I strill need a dance
Simone*~:well...
Simone*~: I need 2 noe wat dance u 1
Simone*~: A lot 2 ask
ZH: yea I know
Simone*~: of not later u scold me 4 not meetin yr requirement....
ZH: when you choreograph, do you write it down or how?
Simone*~: mm..not really...
ZH: I never scold.... y?
ZH: ...
Simone*~: jjk
Simone*~: normally i don write down
ZH: is it possible to wrtie down a 'dance' ?
Simone*~: I juz dance da steps till I can remmeber n dance with da music
Simone*~: not really
Simone*~: oni 4 formationns
Simone*~: other than that
ZH: ooo
Simone*~: no
Simone*~: yea
Simone*~: unless yr step has a certain name
Simone*~: but those are oni like general dances
ZH: Theory of Apple is a philosophy, that takes 'apple' as a subject, not as 'apple' itself
ZH: it is not a random option, but with reasons
ZH: apples have two basic colours, red and green that contradict each other
ZH: a similar object with ambivalent elements
Simone*~ : ambivalent???
Simone*~: meanin?
ZH: like love and hate
ZH: one thing with two contrastic elements
Simone*~: i c
Simone*~ : can understan
ZH: so, on how we perceive red and green apples both or altogether, can be depicted as something we wanted to tell
ZH:maybe we won't know, but we will know it later
Simone*~: mmhmm
ZH: so, the perception of our mental towards the apples, is confusing, it's like why we see a similarity with two contrast colours
ZH: so the perception is manifold, is very vibrant
Simone*~ : manifold???
ZH: so I called it Malfunctionism
ZH: Malfunctionism : to further understand one's mentality by placing oneself into a mental subconsciousness, then perplex one's mentality and thus, forcing one to think and reconstruct the mental imaginary
ZH: according to Sigmund Freud
Simone*~:u noe...i can oni get a lil out of all dis...
Simone*~:Sorry...
Simone*~ : I'm a quite blur in mind person
ZH: that's why I am epxlaning
ZH: ok. for exmaple
Simone*~ : a lot of hard words...
Simone*~: i may get an A in english
ZH: what is the colour of the green apple?
Simone*~ : but not till dis good
Simone*~ :Green N the other is red... I can c u say its contrast
Simone*~ : totally different colors brings out totally dif meanin n messages
ZH: you are confusing yourself now
Simone*~ : It sux 2 be me
Simone*~ : u don mind me being so dumb ryte
ZH: or, another example from theory of apple: if I eat alot of apples, that doesn't mean that I like them, that means that I wanted to crush them and destroy as much as possible
ZH: you are not dumb
Simone*~ : I really 1 2 noe yr plosophy but...
ZH:theory of apple is an absurd, sarcastic, ironic art theory
ZH: so it's like something/one thing, that will invoke two different interpretations
Simone*~ :isn that wat I said
Simone*~ :or wasn it???
ZH: I utilize 'apples' as subjects to explain the whole 'malfunctionism'
Simone*~ :Die la
Simone*~ :@@ Confusin myself
ZH: that is malfunctionism
ZH:confuse yourself in order to reconstruct another clear image in mind
Simone*~: brings 2 dif messages?
ZH: not necessarily 2 of coruse
ZH: berings different messages that sometimes bear a contrasting elements
Simone*~ : like like n dislike...?
ZH: can be
Simone*~ : I'm gettin 50%... i think
ZH: sometimes, when people ask us 1+1 = ?
Simone*~ : 11^^
ZH: and some people will say 2, some 3, some 11, some say a chineseword
ZH: this is an exampler of malfunctionism
ZH:something very simple, but we made it complicated by our own nature
ZH: and we eventually interpret it to further extent until to a limit that we confuse ourselves
ZH:if somebody ask you what is the colour of a red apple, most probably you will think deeper before you answer
ZH: because you are choosing between the logic and the creativity
ZH: the tussle of logic and art is theory of apple a theory, or is it a stupid propaganda of art
Simone*~: its up 2 u 2 c it
ZH:yea
ZH:Malfunctionism is a kind of thing that will foster you to think deeper than surface , force you to think until you manage to confuse yourself, and make you collapse, so that you will reconstruct another 'renew' version in your understanding
ZH: so is it Malfunction a function or is it mere malfunction
ZH:the whole thing is meant to be like that
Simone*~ :so its like
Simone*~ : smth can bring dif messages... smtmes even contrastin 1's
ZH: yup
Simone*~ : wat does malfunctionism links with dis point
ZH: with which point?
Simone*~ : da smth can bring dif messages point Izzit...
ZH: no, malfunction is about our mind
ZH: not about the question
ZH: the question that will invoke confusion to our brain can be called malfunction
Simone*~: cz like I don wanna answer sometn from da surface but sometn dats not visible
ZH: and the 'happenings' depend on our mental
Simone*~ : n I @.@ meself
ZH: it is like why humans think deeper than the surface, is it a necessity, or should humans think deeper than what we thought
Simone*~: So malfunctionism is smth like, smth that can make me tnk deep n confuse myself... like add math....?
Simone*~ :The answer is there but I was thinkin all day n juz couldn find da answer when It was ryte under my nose...ryte?
ZH: yea
Simone*~ : I got it O.o
Simone*~: I got yr meanin but dance...
Simone*~: da apple portrays malfunctionism ryte?
Simone*~ : so how dya show passion 4 it... in a dance? @.@
ZH : I just want to show passion in apple
Da followin convo after dat will not be posted cz I;m juz plat tired now. (Dis convo is a lil clean cz I scrapped off da scar in betweens like Ooo n Mmm's... )
Anyway, It was damn hard 2 understand at 1st but later it juz started 2 come clean.. but da dance part... mmm, guess it will be a lil prob a show passion 4 it... i m guessin oni Zi hao would noe how 2 express that... @.@
next he excitedly showed me a comtemp dance on youtube. 4 da very 1st time I actually don c any artistic theory like him In Him!!! Surprised me a lil. He juz couldn wait 4 me 2 c it, like a lil kid coulsn wait 2 get their ice cream^^ It was cute^^ he was like sendin da link on youtube over n over 2 me on msn, askin me 2 must c it...
(but 4 some ppl's info, I hav no interest in him so don worry... U noe who I fancy) ^^
A half dead Journey To a Full course Holiday^^
It was da last day of da term... Hell of a rush when I arrived at TOA at 10.30am and I had 2 submit my HAD. The nite b4 I juz started on my project, n J came 2 to askin for help. I was kinda surprised and scared if I should trust him.
"Did He come to me juz when he needed me?" I asked myself dis question. Well, closin my eyes I oni found 1 answer deep inside me, The Answer YES.
he asked me 2 juz on9 n find a self portrait (oni TOA students noe wat is artistic self portrait). N later juz print it. Instead, I helped him do a whole new of Self Portrait. Stupid eh? Frenz kept sayin his using me but yet I'm juz followin wat in side me is sayin. went 2 da shop next morn 2 print it but it turned out dat my thumb couldn open.. I cant believe this is happenin. SHOP AFTER SHOP but 2 no avail. So since there's still time, I did da whole thing again @@ Subnitted in time at least. He's so gonna kena from me this time. J! U OWE ME LUNCH!
Oh later da Foot paintin n choir n play in da TOA:TQM was fascinatin! ^^ Honestly I hav 2 say, Lau Mengq Yet looked really not him n Down ryte WEIRD when he's wearin a Sarong. haha!! *laughin my ass off But 2 say bout his malay slang>> Not bad at all
Aside from that, Guess who I saw >> ALEX! From 1st term! N he has a gf with him oh dear... Well I'll congratulate them 4 their sake. They seem lovin^^ Even dared 2 let him lie on her lap IN PUBLIC!!! Oh God.. Well good for them anyway... Later, ok, U don 1 2 hear this but I'll still tell it anyway... ALEX IS SINGING IN THE CHOIR.. N 2 think he actually did ask me 2 join choir last term. Lucki me^^
When da thing finished>>> Come on I noe u wanna shout it with me>> Come on!
MERDEKA MERDEKA MERDEKA!!! *U noe it means holidays 4 us, n not 4 malaysia
"Did He come to me juz when he needed me?" I asked myself dis question. Well, closin my eyes I oni found 1 answer deep inside me, The Answer YES.
he asked me 2 juz on9 n find a self portrait (oni TOA students noe wat is artistic self portrait). N later juz print it. Instead, I helped him do a whole new of Self Portrait. Stupid eh? Frenz kept sayin his using me but yet I'm juz followin wat in side me is sayin. went 2 da shop next morn 2 print it but it turned out dat my thumb couldn open.. I cant believe this is happenin. SHOP AFTER SHOP but 2 no avail. So since there's still time, I did da whole thing again @@ Subnitted in time at least. He's so gonna kena from me this time. J! U OWE ME LUNCH!
Oh later da Foot paintin n choir n play in da TOA:TQM was fascinatin! ^^ Honestly I hav 2 say, Lau Mengq Yet looked really not him n Down ryte WEIRD when he's wearin a Sarong. haha!! *laughin my ass off But 2 say bout his malay slang>> Not bad at all
Aside from that, Guess who I saw >> ALEX! From 1st term! N he has a gf with him oh dear... Well I'll congratulate them 4 their sake. They seem lovin^^ Even dared 2 let him lie on her lap IN PUBLIC!!! Oh God.. Well good for them anyway... Later, ok, U don 1 2 hear this but I'll still tell it anyway... ALEX IS SINGING IN THE CHOIR.. N 2 think he actually did ask me 2 join choir last term. Lucki me^^
When da thing finished>>> Come on I noe u wanna shout it with me>> Come on!
MERDEKA MERDEKA MERDEKA!!! *U noe it means holidays 4 us, n not 4 malaysia
Fish~sick^^
Yesterday, it was our presentation for Letterform n Calligraphy. We are even havin a test on dat day, yes... it was a test on the history of calligraphy n also da different parts of a letterform.
Da test, well... Ok! I cheated, No... Actually my whole class cheated. Till Irene( lecturer) had 2 say "Pee pow, U 1 2 cheat also don make it so obvious yea..." swt... I obviously DID look at Dominic's, whom was sittin beside me. N I also DID look at Lyn's whom was Also sittin beside me. Face it, we were juz so Desperate. We din Study, well i did a lil, but... BUT I 4got that we had 2 study history of Calligraphy O.o" So I;m so so sorry Irene... >.<
Da test, well... Ok! I cheated, No... Actually my whole class cheated. Till Irene( lecturer) had 2 say "Pee pow, U 1 2 cheat also don make it so obvious yea..." swt... I obviously DID look at Dominic's, whom was sittin beside me. N I also DID look at Lyn's whom was Also sittin beside me. Face it, we were juz so Desperate. We din Study, well i did a lil, but... BUT I 4got that we had 2 study history of Calligraphy O.o" So I;m so so sorry Irene... >.<
Next... it was da BIG day 2 show my Fishies^^ Well, really I cant wait 2 show it! After all da lov I gave those lil fishys^^ I hav 2 admit, dat if u really put yr heart n money in doin it, U'll actually get attached 2 it^^ the Supid thing is, My KOISHA came apart when I actually had dumped it in da water n found dat da glue actually is waterbased. Shit... its another 10-20 minutes 2 presentation O.o'''... PANIC! My mom ask me 2 buy elephant glue in Vision Art n also 2 big bottles of water from some mamak stall. Then we glued da words back 2gether n changed da water 2 prevent da REAL fish from dying.. ok, Unfortunately 1 died. Anyway, then I had a hard time bring them up da block cz my tank was like DAMN HEAVY n i had 2 try 2 take it as stable as possible or da fishes will end up seasick....
At least My fishes got me some ooo n ahhh from my frenz n earned me at least 85.5 marks n I got 2 place them in da Gallery of our college^^ N now, bringin dis babires back will be a problem again... haiz... -_-"
2 Friggin Hours!!!
2 Friggin hours! I can't believe I slept 4 oni 2 FRIGGIN hours da nite b4! -_-""" Headache! Heck, 2moro got History of Arts runway presentation somemore><
Sem break is comin but I guess I'm gonna die soon. Wats happy now? I cant get any cz of all da things happenin in college n feelings. A gigantic mess with a endless tip off. PAIN PAIN PAIN!!! head so pain (T.T)
Not oni dat, I guess I was goin noob da whole day. I tempt 2 glance at stuff n shut up 4 a damn long time, with totally nth goin through my mind AT ALL. Wat is wrong with me!!! @@ I practically am confused with almost everythin. EVERYTHIN >< Y am I so stressed out.......?
Guess I cant really handle my life at all. Now da oni time I actually n TRULY felt calm was either when I'm in a sceneric place with beautiful skies n water OR either when i'm lookin at fishes swimmin around in da water. They juz look so calm dat time, makes me calm 2^^
WISH LIFE WEREN'T SO COMPLICATED.... >> Miao!
Sem break is comin but I guess I'm gonna die soon. Wats happy now? I cant get any cz of all da things happenin in college n feelings. A gigantic mess with a endless tip off. PAIN PAIN PAIN!!! head so pain (T.T)
Not oni dat, I guess I was goin noob da whole day. I tempt 2 glance at stuff n shut up 4 a damn long time, with totally nth goin through my mind AT ALL. Wat is wrong with me!!! @@ I practically am confused with almost everythin. EVERYTHIN >< Y am I so stressed out.......?
Guess I cant really handle my life at all. Now da oni time I actually n TRULY felt calm was either when I'm in a sceneric place with beautiful skies n water OR either when i'm lookin at fishes swimmin around in da water. They juz look so calm dat time, makes me calm 2^^
WISH LIFE WEREN'T SO COMPLICATED.... >> Miao!
Sorry N Thx
it's time I call it quits.. I dono y am I dat upset but i am totally n really upset. Everythin dat has happened so suddenly. I juz shouldn't hav went over 2 their class 2 hav a look at wat they're drawin, Shouldn hav talked 2 him, Shouldn't hav had dinner with em dat day in Sunway Lagoon>.< I juz feel I can't play on anymore. Dis pretend thing was a good idea but I was being treated like a spare tyre? An extra...
Well, I think I juz lost trust in guys now.I use 2 tell myself dat guys shouldn't be trusted, sometimes even on yr own dad. Slowly I came 2 trust guys as I started 2 luv a relationship. But now, I guess I lost it again. I dono but... I don think I should trust any1 easily now.
I thought they could be nice guys dats easy 2 socialize n make frenz. But now, I cant believe dis, I cant talk 2 them normally anymore. Juz cant.. Dis whole thing juz had 2 blow up. Not oni Lennard din move off but he even came closer. N I had 2 pick a fight with my pretend. I'm so sorry but I dono I juz feel so irritated bout his atitude, da way he's treatin e sometimes... I thank you so much 4 offerin help 2 me even if I'm a stranger. U hav done alot dat I think is worth it. I like u I really do! As a fren^^ Juz dat.... Argh!! try 2 understand...
Well, I think I juz lost trust in guys now.I use 2 tell myself dat guys shouldn't be trusted, sometimes even on yr own dad. Slowly I came 2 trust guys as I started 2 luv a relationship. But now, I guess I lost it again. I dono but... I don think I should trust any1 easily now.
I thought they could be nice guys dats easy 2 socialize n make frenz. But now, I cant believe dis, I cant talk 2 them normally anymore. Juz cant.. Dis whole thing juz had 2 blow up. Not oni Lennard din move off but he even came closer. N I had 2 pick a fight with my pretend. I'm so sorry but I dono I juz feel so irritated bout his atitude, da way he's treatin e sometimes... I thank you so much 4 offerin help 2 me even if I'm a stranger. U hav done alot dat I think is worth it. I like u I really do! As a fren^^ Juz dat.... Argh!! try 2 understand...
Bent bent bent till U drop... Down
Can u Believe it? he just cant back off!? Dis lennard guy Juz cant stop gettin close 2 me. I really had no choice but 2 lie dat I hav a new relationship n a new boyfriend when well.... I don't. BUT I HAV BACK UP!!! Just a guy in college i just knew through my fren dat's willing 2 lend a helpin hand.
Da thing is, even with that, he noes bout my pretend bf, he's seen him n talked 2 him in person n in msn, he doesn juz don back off, but he even gotten closer. Wat the heck?! Closer??? I'm suffocating here><>AHHHHH!!!
The best way is 2 tell him off, but but but... I juz cant bring myself 2 do so, i don 1 2 hurt him, i juz want him 2 get da idea that I don like being around him (or juz plain him hangin on 2 me all da time) N noe when 2 back off.
Y is there such "doboh" ppl in dis world? such a good reason, when da gal u like has a bf, of course automatically u'd back off at least a lil. N NOT GET CLOSER!!! U surely don1 2 pick a fight with da wrong guy>< Haiz...................... Can say I'm stupid enough not 2 be cold-hearted 4 once, cant even bring myself 2 say no i back off, don waste yr time on me.
Stupid silly me, it's no wonder no nice n cute guys fall 4 me >< **wanna cry adi TT
Da thing is, even with that, he noes bout my pretend bf, he's seen him n talked 2 him in person n in msn, he doesn juz don back off, but he even gotten closer. Wat the heck?! Closer??? I'm suffocating here><>AHHHHH!!!
The best way is 2 tell him off, but but but... I juz cant bring myself 2 do so, i don 1 2 hurt him, i juz want him 2 get da idea that I don like being around him (or juz plain him hangin on 2 me all da time) N noe when 2 back off.
Y is there such "doboh" ppl in dis world? such a good reason, when da gal u like has a bf, of course automatically u'd back off at least a lil. N NOT GET CLOSER!!! U surely don1 2 pick a fight with da wrong guy>< Haiz...................... Can say I'm stupid enough not 2 be cold-hearted 4 once, cant even bring myself 2 say no i back off, don waste yr time on me.
Stupid silly me, it's no wonder no nice n cute guys fall 4 me >< **wanna cry adi TT
Interestin figures in Sunway Lagoon
ok...
Dis is new, but b4 anythin, U cna check out my old blog www.bitchwithaname.blogspot.com. I couldn go in anymore cz I dono wats my usename n password... Sorry had 2 make a new 1. Troublesome.
Okays, anyway, 2day Sunway lagoon sketchin day. Drew figures^^ Fun 2 ask ppl 2 post 4 us. Eve became a poser myself^^ Drawn by some of da best in class (other class). Finished late n skipped ballet >< color="#009900">i noe I don like him. * Grin
Cant believe lushes was part of da course of da day.... >.< Weird!!! But I dono y, I was likin it, 4 no particular reason at all O.o wat da heck >.< Dis is juz not right.... HELP!!! Gp check my old blog^^
Dis is new, but b4 anythin, U cna check out my old blog www.bitchwithaname.blogspot.com. I couldn go in anymore cz I dono wats my usename n password... Sorry had 2 make a new 1. Troublesome.
Okays, anyway, 2day Sunway lagoon sketchin day. Drew figures^^ Fun 2 ask ppl 2 post 4 us. Eve became a poser myself^^ Drawn by some of da best in class (other class). Finished late n skipped ballet >< color="#009900">i noe I don like him. * Grin
Cant believe lushes was part of da course of da day.... >.< Weird!!! But I dono y, I was likin it, 4 no particular reason at all O.o wat da heck >.< Dis is juz not right.... HELP!!! Gp check my old blog^^
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