Nite Out... Till Da club Closes!!!

Nite ryte b4 Penang trip... > went clubbin...

Who... > My ex bf, Micheal ( long time no c)

My ex drawing class fren, Summer ( I missed her)

My College mate from another class, Lau Mengq Yek ( he's nvr been clubbin)

When... > the Nite b4 CD071-1 Departed 4 penang
Where... > Ruums ( don ask y of all places)

How... > U don really need 2 noe

Which... > ??? (there is no which in this)

Why... > 4 DA SICK OF DANCIN DAMNIT!!!

Nway, Summer crashed at my place 1st that nite> helped make up each other^^ > make each other look hot then rated each other on a scale of (nice)1-10(naughty) ^^

"found" Mengq Yek on da steps of da main block. Seriously I hav 2 say, 1 look n he really looks different... Gives me a different feelin from da normal Yek, Different from da catwalk Yek, different from da Drama Yek 2^^ Dressed in black colar buttoned top n well, of course da normal long pants ppl wear 2 clubbin (not jeans nor Hip hop baggies), he does certainly look hot in it^^ Makes me wanna pull him out 2 dance later. Haha *chuckles* N talk bout 1st time goin clubbin... ( sure doesn dress like a 1st timer) -_-"

Micheal picked us up at my place n we went all da way in2 parkin at Ruums to find dat SUMMER DIN BRING HER IC!!! O.o'' I did remind her 2 bring her ic jz b4 we're leavin, guess she's as blur as me cz I think she din hear me (even with jz da both of us in da room). So we've decided 2 try our luck 2 jz walk in2 Ruums, N it SUCCEDED^^ *Phew*

Danced danced danced, while da guys din 1 2 dance. My guys Don wanna dance n other guys kept poundin their bodies all over me n Summer, WTF!!! I mean, get the point la, if I don make body contact with u at all when I dance, means I'm not interested!!! I decided 2 pull either 1 of MY guys 2 da dance floor^^ 1st it was failure then they seem 2 start 2 enjoy da music. ^^

Few things I did at the Dance floor in Ruums>>>

__Did a lil latin with all da twirls n bent downs With Micheal cz he use 2 be in da same dance class with me, but now he stopped -_-" it was hot, I really luv it^^

__Did a lil ??? dance with Mengq Yek. Surprised when he danced half way n kneeled on da floor O.o" But... Was fascinated!!! Luved his dance^^ Even did some dirty dances (Imagine 4 a whole term I've nvr even touched him on da shoulder b4 O.o)

__Danced TOTAL DIRTY dance with Summer. Juz danced without caring wat ppl might c. ^^

__Danced on da main stage of Ruums. Felt jz like I'm entertainin da crowd but of course, every1's bz either dancin or drinkin^^ I danced like I was drunk but actually of course I din drink at all^^

__Danced da very last song with Yek (it was a slow love song), hugged him tight n danced jz like those in a night ballroom. very lovey-dovey but of course there's no spark in it at all cz we're jz frenz^^ (tho I do feel really warm n safe in his hug)

I saw Micheal n summer dancin 2gether... Cute^^

Me dancin with Yek... .... .... Safe n sound I guess.... ... ... ( think i'd like 2 hug him n dance more) N those guys out there (whoeve I love n loves me back) DON GET JEALOUS!!! Its jz a dance... (well, u can call it cute or hot or wateva u 1 with it, Yek... )

There's even dis malay guy dancin with me , tho I totally hav no interest in dancin with him wat so eva. He suddenly brushed his crotch on2 me when we were dancin YUCKSS!!! Oh well, its crowded in there anyway... But... really.. I can feel it standin... GROSS!!! Still it's dancin... Y din my frenz save me (T-T) *sob sob*

Striked some funny poses when we were gonna leave. check it out ><

PS: Ahem... It's jz a pose so don go Ohhh! n Ahhh! over it...

N 4 those who are curious wat time we got home, It's 4.30am.

Young Nite huh?

Confusionism...

It was hard 2 understand when Zi Hao 1st told me bout his Theory Of Apples. I caught a lil but then found dat I din at all.. he was tryin really hard 2 explain it 2 me while I kept thinkin n thinkin wat he meant... -_-"

Dis was da convo>>>

Simone*~ : yr philosophy?
Simone*~ : actually do u really need me 2 out with a Passion of Apple dance?
ZH: yea, I need a dance for the series, but I wouldn't know when can I really put the whole series to stage
ZH: it needs some time for rehearsals and discussion with somebody else Idont know which platform, dontk now when and who and all the logistics going on but I strill need a dance
Simone*~:well...
Simone*~: I need 2 noe wat dance u 1
Simone*~: A lot 2 ask
ZH: yea I know
Simone*~: of not later u scold me 4 not meetin yr requirement....
ZH: when you choreograph, do you write it down or how?
Simone*~: mm..not really...
ZH: I never scold.... y?
ZH: ...
Simone*~: jjk
Simone*~: normally i don write down
ZH: is it possible to wrtie down a 'dance' ?
Simone*~: I juz dance da steps till I can remmeber n dance with da music
Simone*~: not really
Simone*~: oni 4 formationns
Simone*~: other than that
ZH: ooo
Simone*~: no
Simone*~: yea
Simone*~: unless yr step has a certain name
Simone*~: but those are oni like general dances
ZH: Theory of Apple is a philosophy, that takes 'apple' as a subject, not as 'apple' itself
ZH: it is not a random option, but with reasons
ZH: apples have two basic colours, red and green that contradict each other
ZH: a similar object with ambivalent elements
Simone*~ : ambivalent???
Simone*~: meanin?
ZH: like love and hate
ZH: one thing with two contrastic elements
Simone*~: i c
Simone*~ : can understan
ZH: so, on how we perceive red and green apples both or altogether, can be depicted as something we wanted to tell
ZH:maybe we won't know, but we will know it later
Simone*~: mmhmm
ZH: so, the perception of our mental towards the apples, is confusing, it's like why we see a similarity with two contrast colours
ZH: so the perception is manifold, is very vibrant
Simone*~ : manifold???
ZH: so I called it Malfunctionism
ZH: Malfunctionism : to further understand one's mentality by placing oneself into a mental subconsciousness, then perplex one's mentality and thus, forcing one to think and reconstruct the mental imaginary
ZH: according to Sigmund Freud
Simone*~:u noe...i can oni get a lil out of all dis...
Simone*~:Sorry...
Simone*~ : I'm a quite blur in mind person
ZH: that's why I am epxlaning
ZH: ok. for exmaple
Simone*~ : a lot of hard words...
Simone*~: i may get an A in english
ZH: what is the colour of the green apple?
Simone*~ : but not till dis good
Simone*~ :Green N the other is red... I can c u say its contrast
Simone*~ : totally different colors brings out totally dif meanin n messages
ZH: you are confusing yourself now
Simone*~ : It sux 2 be me
Simone*~ : u don mind me being so dumb ryte
ZH: or, another example from theory of apple: if I eat alot of apples, that doesn't mean that I like them, that means that I wanted to crush them and destroy as much as possible
ZH: you are not dumb
Simone*~ : I really 1 2 noe yr plosophy but...
ZH:theory of apple is an absurd, sarcastic, ironic art theory
ZH: so it's like something/one thing, that will invoke two different interpretations
Simone*~ :isn that wat I said
Simone*~ :or wasn it???
ZH: I utilize 'apples' as subjects to explain the whole 'malfunctionism'
Simone*~ :Die la
Simone*~ :@@ Confusin myself
ZH: that is malfunctionism
ZH:confuse yourself in order to reconstruct another clear image in mind
Simone*~: brings 2 dif messages?
ZH: not necessarily 2 of coruse
ZH: berings different messages that sometimes bear a contrasting elements
Simone*~ : like like n dislike...?
ZH: can be
Simone*~ : I'm gettin 50%... i think
ZH: sometimes, when people ask us 1+1 = ?
Simone*~ : 11^^
ZH: and some people will say 2, some 3, some 11, some say a chineseword
ZH: this is an exampler of malfunctionism
ZH:something very simple, but we made it complicated by our own nature
ZH: and we eventually interpret it to further extent until to a limit that we confuse ourselves
ZH:if somebody ask you what is the colour of a red apple, most probably you will think deeper before you answer
ZH: because you are choosing between the logic and the creativity
ZH: the tussle of logic and art is theory of apple a theory, or is it a stupid propaganda of art
Simone*~: its up 2 u 2 c it
ZH:yea
ZH:Malfunctionism is a kind of thing that will foster you to think deeper than surface , force you to think until you manage to confuse yourself, and make you collapse, so that you will reconstruct another 'renew' version in your understanding
ZH: so is it Malfunction a function or is it mere malfunction
ZH:the whole thing is meant to be like that
Simone*~ :so its like
Simone*~ : smth can bring dif messages... smtmes even contrastin 1's
ZH: yup
Simone*~ : wat does malfunctionism links with dis point
ZH: with which point?
Simone*~ : da smth can bring dif messages point Izzit...
ZH: no, malfunction is about our mind
ZH: not about the question
ZH: the question that will invoke confusion to our brain can be called malfunction
Simone*~: cz like I don wanna answer sometn from da surface but sometn dats not visible
ZH: and the 'happenings' depend on our mental
Simone*~ : n I @.@ meself
ZH: it is like why humans think deeper than the surface, is it a necessity, or should humans think deeper than what we thought
Simone*~: So malfunctionism is smth like, smth that can make me tnk deep n confuse myself... like add math....?
Simone*~ :The answer is there but I was thinkin all day n juz couldn find da answer when It was ryte under my nose...ryte?
ZH: yea
Simone*~ : I got it O.o
Simone*~: I got yr meanin but dance...
Simone*~: da apple portrays malfunctionism ryte?
Simone*~ : so how dya show passion 4 it... in a dance? @.@
ZH : I just want to show passion in apple

Da followin convo after dat will not be posted cz I;m juz plat tired now. (Dis convo is a lil clean cz I scrapped off da scar in betweens like Ooo n Mmm's... )

Anyway, It was damn hard 2 understand at 1st but later it juz started 2 come clean.. but da dance part... mmm, guess it will be a lil prob a show passion 4 it... i m guessin oni Zi hao would noe how 2 express that... @.@

next he excitedly showed me a comtemp dance on youtube. 4 da very 1st time I actually don c any artistic theory like him In Him!!! Surprised me a lil. He juz couldn wait 4 me 2 c it, like a lil kid coulsn wait 2 get their ice cream^^ It was cute^^ he was like sendin da link on youtube over n over 2 me on msn, askin me 2 must c it...
(but 4 some ppl's info, I hav no interest in him so don worry... U noe who I fancy) ^^

Confusionism...

A half dead Journey To a Full course Holiday^^

It was da last day of da term... Hell of a rush when I arrived at TOA at 10.30am and I had 2 submit my HAD. The nite b4 I juz started on my project, n J came 2 to askin for help. I was kinda surprised and scared if I should trust him.

"Did He come to me juz when he needed me?" I asked myself dis question. Well, closin my eyes I oni found 1 answer deep inside me, The Answer YES.

he asked me 2 juz on9 n find a self portrait (oni TOA students noe wat is artistic self portrait). N later juz print it. Instead, I helped him do a whole new of Self Portrait. Stupid eh? Frenz kept sayin his using me but yet I'm juz followin wat in side me is sayin. went 2 da shop next morn 2 print it but it turned out dat my thumb couldn open.. I cant believe this is happenin. SHOP AFTER SHOP but 2 no avail. So since there's still time, I did da whole thing again @@ Subnitted in time at least. He's so gonna kena from me this time. J! U OWE ME LUNCH!

Oh later da Foot paintin n choir n play in da TOA:TQM was fascinatin! ^^ Honestly I hav 2 say, Lau Mengq Yet looked really not him n Down ryte WEIRD when he's wearin a Sarong. haha!! *laughin my ass off But 2 say bout his malay slang>> Not bad at all

Aside from that, Guess who I saw >> ALEX! From 1st term! N he has a gf with him oh dear... Well I'll congratulate them 4 their sake. They seem lovin^^ Even dared 2 let him lie on her lap IN PUBLIC!!! Oh God.. Well good for them anyway... Later, ok, U don 1 2 hear this but I'll still tell it anyway... ALEX IS SINGING IN THE CHOIR.. N 2 think he actually did ask me 2 join choir last term. Lucki me^^

When da thing finished>>> Come on I noe u wanna shout it with me>> Come on!

MERDEKA MERDEKA MERDEKA!!! *U noe it means holidays 4 us, n not 4 malaysia

A half dead Journey.

Fish~sick^^

Yesterday, it was our presentation for Letterform n Calligraphy. We are even havin a test on dat day, yes... it was a test on the history of calligraphy n also da different parts of a letterform.

Da test, well... Ok! I cheated, No... Actually my whole class cheated. Till Irene( lecturer) had 2 say "Pee pow, U 1 2 cheat also don make it so obvious yea..." swt... I obviously DID look at Dominic's, whom was sittin beside me. N I also DID look at Lyn's whom was Also sittin beside me. Face it, we were juz so Desperate. We din Study, well i did a lil, but... BUT I 4got that we had 2 study history of Calligraphy O.o" So I;m so so sorry Irene... >.<

Next... it was da BIG day 2 show my Fishies^^ Well, really I cant wait 2 show it! After all da lov I gave those lil fishys^^ I hav 2 admit, dat if u really put yr heart n money in doin it, U'll actually get attached 2 it^^ the Supid thing is, My KOISHA came apart when I actually had dumped it in da water n found dat da glue actually is waterbased. Shit... its another 10-20 minutes 2 presentation O.o'''... PANIC! My mom ask me 2 buy elephant glue in Vision Art n also 2 big bottles of water from some mamak stall. Then we glued da words back 2gether n changed da water 2 prevent da REAL fish from dying.. ok, Unfortunately 1 died. Anyway, then I had a hard time bring them up da block cz my tank was like DAMN HEAVY n i had 2 try 2 take it as stable as possible or da fishes will end up seasick....

At least My fishes got me some ooo n ahhh from my frenz n earned me at least 85.5 marks n I got 2 place them in da Gallery of our college^^ N now, bringin dis babires back will be a problem again... haiz... -_-"

2 Friggin Hours!!!

2 Friggin hours! I can't believe I slept 4 oni 2 FRIGGIN hours da nite b4! -_-""" Headache! Heck, 2moro got History of Arts runway presentation somemore><

Sem break is comin but I guess I'm gonna die soon. Wats happy now? I cant get any cz of all da things happenin in college n feelings. A gigantic mess with a endless tip off. PAIN PAIN PAIN!!! head so pain (T.T)

Not oni dat, I guess I was goin noob da whole day. I tempt 2 glance at stuff n shut up 4 a damn long time, with totally nth goin through my mind AT ALL. Wat is wrong with me!!! @@ I practically am confused with almost everythin. EVERYTHIN >< Y am I so stressed out.......?

Guess I cant really handle my life at all. Now da oni time I actually n TRULY felt calm was either when I'm in a sceneric place with beautiful skies n water OR either when i'm lookin at fishes swimmin around in da water. They juz look so calm dat time, makes me calm 2^^

WISH LIFE WEREN'T SO COMPLICATED.... >> Miao!

Sorry N Thx

it's time I call it quits.. I dono y am I dat upset but i am totally n really upset. Everythin dat has happened so suddenly. I juz shouldn't hav went over 2 their class 2 hav a look at wat they're drawin, Shouldn hav talked 2 him, Shouldn't hav had dinner with em dat day in Sunway Lagoon>.< I juz feel I can't play on anymore. Dis pretend thing was a good idea but I was being treated like a spare tyre? An extra...

Well, I think I juz lost trust in guys now.I use 2 tell myself dat guys shouldn't be trusted, sometimes even on yr own dad. Slowly I came 2 trust guys as I started 2 luv a relationship. But now, I guess I lost it again. I dono but... I don think I should trust any1 easily now.

I thought they could be nice guys dats easy 2 socialize n make frenz. But now, I cant believe dis, I cant talk 2 them normally anymore. Juz cant.. Dis whole thing juz had 2 blow up. Not oni Lennard din move off but he even came closer. N I had 2 pick a fight with my pretend. I'm so sorry but I dono I juz feel so irritated bout his atitude, da way he's treatin e sometimes... I thank you so much 4 offerin help 2 me even if I'm a stranger. U hav done alot dat I think is worth it. I like u I really do! As a fren^^ Juz dat.... Argh!! try 2 understand...

Bent bent bent till U drop... Down

Can u Believe it? he just cant back off!? Dis lennard guy Juz cant stop gettin close 2 me. I really had no choice but 2 lie dat I hav a new relationship n a new boyfriend when well.... I don't. BUT I HAV BACK UP!!! Just a guy in college i just knew through my fren dat's willing 2 lend a helpin hand.

Da thing is, even with that, he noes bout my pretend bf, he's seen him n talked 2 him in person n in msn, he doesn juz don back off, but he even gotten closer. Wat the heck?! Closer??? I'm suffocating here><>AHHHHH!!!

The best way is 2 tell him off, but but but... I juz cant bring myself 2 do so, i don 1 2 hurt him, i juz want him 2 get da idea that I don like being around him (or juz plain him hangin on 2 me all da time) N noe when 2 back off.

Y is there such "doboh" ppl in dis world? such a good reason, when da gal u like has a bf, of course automatically u'd back off at least a lil. N NOT GET CLOSER!!! U surely don1 2 pick a fight with da wrong guy>< Haiz...................... Can say I'm stupid enough not 2 be cold-hearted 4 once, cant even bring myself 2 say no i back off, don waste yr time on me.

Stupid silly me, it's no wonder no nice n cute guys fall 4 me >< **wanna cry adi TT

Interestin figures in Sunway Lagoon

ok...
Dis is new, but b4 anythin, U cna check out my old blog www.bitchwithaname.blogspot.com. I couldn go in anymore cz I dono wats my usename n password... Sorry had 2 make a new 1. Troublesome.

Okays, anyway, 2day Sunway lagoon sketchin day. Drew figures^^ Fun 2 ask ppl 2 post 4 us. Eve became a poser myself^^ Drawn by some of da best in class (other class). Finished late n skipped ballet >< color="#009900">i noe I don like him. * Grin

Cant believe lushes was part of da course of da day.... >.< Weird!!! But I dono y, I was likin it, 4 no particular reason at all O.o wat da heck >.< Dis is juz not right.... HELP!!! Gp check my old blog^^